Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Guiding own necessities
Explain the pain that I gain
Is it worse to curse than to steal from your mother's purse
or is it better to change your lifestyle,
then be in denial?
I'm stuck in a fake life that I take and create
If assuming that I can't improve, what is there to approve?
I'm going up and down, round and round and I listen to the sounds
the sounds of orders, blocked by these borders as I get older
"you can't do this or that" just because I lack
lack to accept the fact that,
I'm too young
Quizes, tests
A's and F's
Theywant A's, through my days
there was nothing to do but gaze
Dream of dreams that I've never seen
I'm sick of their demands, being hit by their hands
But I stand alone, I dig deep down to the bone
keeping my words from all the things I've heard
Hands down, inside imprints a frown wearing a crown saying,
"Failure"
I figured that not being perfect isn't so bad but it's something we all wish we had
Across from me lays my life, tensions become tight
Despite what might be a fight, my lesson is learned
And as I yearn for my future concerns, you should take your turn
No matter how much it hurts to be caught up in their dirt
Wait until you move out because there's nothing to regret but doubt
Don't complain and shout
because you'll get older
and one day you'll dust them off your shoulder
Is it worse to curse than to steal from your mother's purse
or is it better to change your lifestyle,
then be in denial?
I'm stuck in a fake life that I take and create
If assuming that I can't improve, what is there to approve?
I'm going up and down, round and round and I listen to the sounds
the sounds of orders, blocked by these borders as I get older
"you can't do this or that" just because I lack
lack to accept the fact that,
I'm too young
Quizes, tests
A's and F's
Theywant A's, through my days
there was nothing to do but gaze
Dream of dreams that I've never seen
I'm sick of their demands, being hit by their hands
But I stand alone, I dig deep down to the bone
keeping my words from all the things I've heard
Hands down, inside imprints a frown wearing a crown saying,
"Failure"
I figured that not being perfect isn't so bad but it's something we all wish we had
Across from me lays my life, tensions become tight
Despite what might be a fight, my lesson is learned
And as I yearn for my future concerns, you should take your turn
No matter how much it hurts to be caught up in their dirt
Wait until you move out because there's nothing to regret but doubt
Don't complain and shout
because you'll get older
and one day you'll dust them off your shoulder
Worry does not take the pain out of tomorrow; it merely takes the joy out of today.
That quote is deep. Don't procrastinate you guys! Please! Haha, no matter how lazy you are the days before, just pretend that the next day is when the assignment is due, don't waste time(x I regret doing that, and eventually I'm going to do it again.
I've been reading quotes, and one quote that I made up today as my life was walking beside me was:
You share life through the words you speak
I hung out with Paulina, I miss her even though we see each other at school and she comes by my locker. I miss all my friends. I can see that we can be friends again, but the things I do are time consuming. Am I being a little selfish? Enjoying myself without the people I care about the most? Is this expediency catching onto me? Or am I just being foolish for not giving my time? I don't know. Lately, I haven't been lazy or anything. But if we weren't conquered by time, then life would be endless, no standards, nothing. This is forcing me to learn how much I've turned my back on so many people. It's better enough for me to not even care, but it draws me away from them than ever. Sometimes, I can't handle this. Bullshit, that's all. This is like, dung, to me. I just want nothing, let me not have what I wait for, let me not have the time. Rebel against this world. What am I saying. Life should be worth living, because we only have ONE life. That's it. She is my problem, and I wish that I could already move out of my house, I wouldn't give a damn if I left my school. UGH, I'm gonna shower and cool down.
*On Sunday, my left eye kept twitching. Hoping for the disaster to come by and leave a stab on my back, because I feel like I've been waiting so long to deserve it
I've been reading quotes, and one quote that I made up today as my life was walking beside me was:
You share life through the words you speak
I hung out with Paulina, I miss her even though we see each other at school and she comes by my locker. I miss all my friends. I can see that we can be friends again, but the things I do are time consuming. Am I being a little selfish? Enjoying myself without the people I care about the most? Is this expediency catching onto me? Or am I just being foolish for not giving my time? I don't know. Lately, I haven't been lazy or anything. But if we weren't conquered by time, then life would be endless, no standards, nothing. This is forcing me to learn how much I've turned my back on so many people. It's better enough for me to not even care, but it draws me away from them than ever. Sometimes, I can't handle this. Bullshit, that's all. This is like, dung, to me. I just want nothing, let me not have what I wait for, let me not have the time. Rebel against this world. What am I saying. Life should be worth living, because we only have ONE life. That's it. She is my problem, and I wish that I could already move out of my house, I wouldn't give a damn if I left my school. UGH, I'm gonna shower and cool down.
*On Sunday, my left eye kept twitching. Hoping for the disaster to come by and leave a stab on my back, because I feel like I've been waiting so long to deserve it
Monday, April 20, 2009
happy birthday chris le!
yeeup that's my new hair cut too. Two tails? I think it's hot. Hahah FREAKING JEFFREY CUT HIS MOHAWK AND TAIL. Jerk made me cut mine for no reason! Jk.
I planned to get the style of Yuna from FFX2 it was ok when I tried spiking it, but the sides, they're a bit long so in the summer I'll try to make it shorter.
for those of you who just found out I got a hair cut today, well, if it's not appealing, deal with it. Don't worry I'm still the same Jovey(x
Oh boy. I felt bad for not giving him a gift. Hmm. Well, I'll return the favor some day. A few people noticed my hair cut. THAT'S A GOOD THING. I don't want the whole world to know yet. School was boring, after school was pretty fun. Played the piano with Leah in Dang's room. Basically hung out with Ferdy Leo and Bruce. Bruce is a cool guy(=! And I'm glad I'm friends with him because I don't know what it is, but I look up to him in a way. He made things possible that he never would have expected it to result like it. I remember during the summer he always ran in his big jacket in the hot sun. And one thing he told me, "I don't know, I've just gotten addicted to it." Seeing someone like him makes me feel unnatural. Like, hey he's doing something productive. We're all lazy beings and we wish upon what we can be in life, but I mean, JUST DO IT. I learned that in church ahha, cause Pastor Sam was trying to relate Nike to a passage in the Bible (x I like his messages because it's so traditional for a filipino to relate things to each other. Well, that was basically all I did at school, get to know Bruce a little more and watch little Boeger kids trying to learn how to break dance from Michael Vo. That's another weird thing, these friends or just guys, not many people like to explore them. NOT LIKE THAT, but hey there are probably other secrets they hide behind their backs. I didn't know Michael Vo can break dance, it's like some underground society they live in. Hahah, but hey through the years, maybe life would be more interesting if people became more appealing and express their true talents and themselves. Ending with this, I walked with Ferdy and elvis on the way home. FunFunFUN.
FIN(=
I planned to get the style of Yuna from FFX2 it was ok when I tried spiking it, but the sides, they're a bit long so in the summer I'll try to make it shorter.
for those of you who just found out I got a hair cut today, well, if it's not appealing, deal with it. Don't worry I'm still the same Jovey(x
Oh boy. I felt bad for not giving him a gift. Hmm. Well, I'll return the favor some day. A few people noticed my hair cut. THAT'S A GOOD THING. I don't want the whole world to know yet. School was boring, after school was pretty fun. Played the piano with Leah in Dang's room. Basically hung out with Ferdy Leo and Bruce. Bruce is a cool guy(=! And I'm glad I'm friends with him because I don't know what it is, but I look up to him in a way. He made things possible that he never would have expected it to result like it. I remember during the summer he always ran in his big jacket in the hot sun. And one thing he told me, "I don't know, I've just gotten addicted to it." Seeing someone like him makes me feel unnatural. Like, hey he's doing something productive. We're all lazy beings and we wish upon what we can be in life, but I mean, JUST DO IT. I learned that in church ahha, cause Pastor Sam was trying to relate Nike to a passage in the Bible (x I like his messages because it's so traditional for a filipino to relate things to each other. Well, that was basically all I did at school, get to know Bruce a little more and watch little Boeger kids trying to learn how to break dance from Michael Vo. That's another weird thing, these friends or just guys, not many people like to explore them. NOT LIKE THAT, but hey there are probably other secrets they hide behind their backs. I didn't know Michael Vo can break dance, it's like some underground society they live in. Hahah, but hey through the years, maybe life would be more interesting if people became more appealing and express their true talents and themselves. Ending with this, I walked with Ferdy and elvis on the way home. FunFunFUN.
FIN(=
Sunday, April 19, 2009
the deal is off!
Well, spring break is over. What did I do?
-sister to sister conference
-alum rock center (for filipino veterans)
-shoreline/easter parties
-chill day
-pho54
-bake with amanda
-picnic with dbc/lbtb
-twin's dad's party
-hw day
Best Srpingbreak09
today? I'm gonna finish my essay answer questions read my book and study
+Swimming with Ivy and Rae.
*Btw, I cut my hair yesterday, don't worry, hair grows back!
-sister to sister conference
-alum rock center (for filipino veterans)
-shoreline/easter parties
-chill day
-pho54
-bake with amanda
-picnic with dbc/lbtb
-twin's dad's party
-hw day
Best Srpingbreak09
today? I'm gonna finish my essay answer questions read my book and study
+Swimming with Ivy and Rae.
*Btw, I cut my hair yesterday, don't worry, hair grows back!
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Friday, April 17, 2009
Do it
It's almost my birthday. I hate my birthdays. Whenever I celebrate it, no one is really entertained. I'm usually the one who makes other people's party a party. Last year was pretty horrible. Went out with the wrong friends. Well, I plan to just go bowling with Martin and about 2-3 friends on the Saturday before. On Sunday, I'll celebrate it with my parents. Tuesday would just be with FYC. Friday, I'll be able to see people at battle. So it's all set. I don't plan on making a huge party. I better see Elvis haha.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
hysterically incredible
Showing the inner G inside of me
My day was fun, went to pho with matt and stefan, then went home with amanda to bake cupcakes. GREAT DAY. I failed to do my hw today
My day was fun, went to pho with matt and stefan, then went home with amanda to bake cupcakes. GREAT DAY. I failed to do my hw today
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
5 people who made my day (aim convo[lonnnnggggg])
-KUYA CARLO! (:
This is what he said- "I miss that baller! Haha," he sang about me with Viet on the guitar!
The LBFC/LightbytheBay/Pittsburgh Picnic was incredible:D!
Played volleyball for hours and hours ahha.
-VIET! I MISS THIS GUY! HE'S MY FAVORITE YOUTH! I remember from camp, RED TEEAM! WE WON! AHAHAH;)
-STEFAN
imurderpotatoes (8:04:38 PM): sup jigga
j0veyhere (8:12:17 PM): wassup wassup?
imurderpotatoes (8:13:03 PM): i drove from elk grove back to san jose last night
imurderpotatoes (8:13:05 PM): and then i remmebred how you told me
imurderpotatoes (8:13:09 PM): you tried to change lanes
imurderpotatoes (8:13:10 PM): and epically failed
j0veyhere (8:18:25 PM): mmhm..
j0veyhere (8:18:32 PM): where are you goign with this? XD
imurderpotatoes (8:22:28 PM): being remined of yor fail
imurderpotatoes (8:22:33 PM): made me feel pro when i was driving
imurderpotatoes (8:22:34 PM): ;D
j0veyhere (8:31:54 PM): LOL
j0veyhere (8:31:57 PM): pshhhh
j0veyhere (8:32:03 PM): ill race ya one day
j0veyhere (8:32:13 PM): one day breh, one day
imurderpotatoes (8:32:26 PM): LOl
imurderpotatoes (8:32:26 PM): you won't
imurderpotatoes (8:32:26 PM): YOU WON'T
--
imurderpotatoes (9:04:37 PM): if i had a bday party
imurderpotatoes (9:04:39 PM): would j00 comz
j0veyhere (9:05:48 PM): yes!
j0veyhere (9:05:51 PM): WE BETTER TAKE..
j0veyhere (9:05:55 PM): millions of pics(:
j0veyhere (9:05:57 PM): hahha
imurderpotatoes (9:06:41 PM): ahaha
imurderpotatoes (9:07:10 PM): butbut
imurderpotatoes (9:07:13 PM): my house is empty ):
j0veyhere (9:07:55 PM): it's coo
j0veyhere (9:08:06 PM): ill bring some silly strings and tag on your walls
j0veyhere (9:08:07 PM): HAHA.
imurderpotatoes (9:10:45 PM): LOL
imurderpotatoes (9:10:50 PM): my parents wouldn't care
imurderpotatoes (9:10:54 PM): its no longer our hosue
j0veyhere (9:11:01 PM): ROFL
j0veyhere (9:11:04 PM): OH HECK YES
imurderpotatoes (9:18:57 PM): they even said
imurderpotatoes (9:18:57 PM): you can go ahead and go wild
imurderpotatoes (9:18:57 PM): we don't care
imurderpotatoes (9:18:57 PM): it snot our hosue
j0veyhere (9:19:47 PM): LOL
j0veyhere (9:19:50 PM): OK
j0veyhere (9:19:55 PM): are they gonna be there?
imurderpotatoes (9:20:54 PM): probably not
j0veyhere (9:23:28 PM): SWEET.
j0veyhere (9:23:29 PM): lol
imurderpotatoes (9:23:41 PM): idk who i would invite though
imurderpotatoes (9:23:44 PM): or when i'd throw it
j0veyhere (9:23:48 PM): lol
j0veyhere (9:23:55 PM): do you want me to help? XD
imurderpotatoes (9:25:54 PM): do it
imurderpotatoes (9:26:27 PM): idk when i'd have it though
imurderpotatoes (9:26:27 PM): this week is chris
imurderpotatoes (9:26:27 PM): next week is gook night
j0veyhere (9:29:48 PM): ahh.
j0veyhere (9:29:51 PM): idk > <
j0veyhere (9:30:13 PM): hey what time is your practice?
imurderpotatoes (9:30:44 PM): 9-11 something
j0veyhere (9:30:54 PM): freal?
imurderpotatoes (9:30:58 PM): yeah
j0veyhere (9:32:55 PM): hmm
imurderpotatoes (9:33:04 PM): roawr
imurderpotatoes (9:33:09 PM): ima have like
imurderpotatoes (9:33:10 PM): 40 pizzas
imurderpotatoes (9:33:18 PM): my dad works for pizza hut in sac town
imurderpotatoes (9:33:22 PM): so he always brings back like
imurderpotatoes (9:33:24 PM): 40 pizzas
imurderpotatoes (9:33:26 PM): andi have so much
imurderpotatoes (9:33:30 PM): my parents just give it away
j0veyhere (9:33:52 PM): XD!
j0veyhere (9:33:53 PM): GG
j0veyhere (9:33:57 PM): that's awesome
imurderpotatoes (9:34:05 PM): dude you want pizza
imurderpotatoes (9:34:07 PM): just come to my hosue tomorrow
imurderpotatoes (9:34:09 PM): and you get a pizza
imurderpotatoes (9:34:13 PM): i shit you not
j0veyhere (9:36:39 PM): awww freals?
j0veyhere (9:36:44 PM): what time?
imurderpotatoes (9:36:47 PM): idk
imurderpotatoes (9:36:48 PM): just hit me up
j0veyhere (9:36:56 PM): ill bring amanda (:!
j0veyhere (9:36:58 PM): lol
imurderpotatoes (9:37:03 PM): no
imurderpotatoes (9:37:04 PM): fuck that
j0veyhere (9:37:06 PM): LOL
j0veyhere (9:37:08 PM): JUSS ME?
imurderpotatoes (9:37:11 PM): yeah
j0veyhere (9:37:16 PM): OH HAIL YES
imurderpotatoes (9:37:20 PM): YAH
j0veyhere (9:37:24 PM): lol
MATT(bestfriend)-
oh man, i'm keep this one coo. Haha ill put it in my other blog
AMANDA-
imurderpotatoes (9:04:37 PM): if i had a bday party
imurderpotatoes (9:04:39 PM): would j00 comz
j0veyhere (9:05:48 PM): yes!
j0veyhere (9:05:51 PM): WE BETTER TAKE..
j0veyhere (9:05:55 PM): millions of pics(:
j0veyhere (9:05:57 PM): hahha
imurderpotatoes (9:06:41 PM): ahaha
imurderpotatoes (9:07:10 PM): butbut
imurderpotatoes (9:07:13 PM): my house is empty ):
j0veyhere (9:07:55 PM): it's coo
j0veyhere (9:08:06 PM): ill bring some silly strings and tag on your walls
j0veyhere (9:08:07 PM): HAHA.
imurderpotatoes (9:10:45 PM): LOL
imurderpotatoes (9:10:50 PM): my parents wouldn't care
imurderpotatoes (9:10:54 PM): its no longer our hosue
j0veyhere (9:11:01 PM): ROFL
j0veyhere (9:11:04 PM): OH HECK YES
imurderpotatoes (9:18:57 PM): they even said
imurderpotatoes (9:18:57 PM): you can go ahead and go wild
imurderpotatoes (9:18:57 PM): we don't care
imurderpotatoes (9:18:57 PM): it snot our hosue
j0veyhere (9:19:47 PM): LOL
j0veyhere (9:19:50 PM): OK
j0veyhere (9:19:55 PM): are they gonna be there?
imurderpotatoes (9:20:54 PM): probably not
j0veyhere (9:23:28 PM): SWEET.
j0veyhere (9:23:29 PM): lol
imurderpotatoes (9:23:41 PM): idk who i would invite though
imurderpotatoes (9:23:44 PM): or when i'd throw it
j0veyhere (9:23:48 PM): lol
j0veyhere (9:23:55 PM): do you want me to help? XD
imurderpotatoes (9:25:54 PM): do it
imurderpotatoes (9:26:27 PM): idk when i'd have it though
imurderpotatoes (9:26:27 PM): this week is chris
imurderpotatoes (9:26:27 PM): next week is gook night
j0veyhere (9:29:48 PM): ahh.
j0veyhere (9:29:51 PM): idk > <
j0veyhere (9:30:13 PM): hey what time is your practice?
imurderpotatoes (9:30:44 PM): 9-11 something
j0veyhere (9:30:54 PM): freal?
imurderpotatoes (9:30:58 PM): yeah
j0veyhere (9:32:55 PM): hmm
imurderpotatoes (9:33:04 PM): roawr
imurderpotatoes (9:33:09 PM): ima have like
imurderpotatoes (9:33:10 PM): 40 pizzas
imurderpotatoes (9:33:18 PM): my dad works for pizza hut in sac town
imurderpotatoes (9:33:22 PM): so he always brings back like
imurderpotatoes (9:33:24 PM): 40 pizzas
imurderpotatoes (9:33:26 PM): andi have so much
imurderpotatoes (9:33:30 PM): my parents just give it away
j0veyhere (9:33:52 PM): XD!
j0veyhere (9:33:53 PM): GG
j0veyhere (9:33:57 PM): that's awesome
imurderpotatoes (9:34:05 PM): dude you want pizza
imurderpotatoes (9:34:07 PM): just come to my hosue tomorrow
imurderpotatoes (9:34:09 PM): and you get a pizza
imurderpotatoes (9:34:13 PM): i shit you not
j0veyhere (9:36:39 PM): awww freals?
j0veyhere (9:36:44 PM): what time?
imurderpotatoes (9:36:47 PM): idk
imurderpotatoes (9:36:48 PM): just hit me up
j0veyhere (9:36:56 PM): ill bring amanda (:!
j0veyhere (9:36:58 PM): lol
imurderpotatoes (9:37:03 PM): no
imurderpotatoes (9:37:04 PM): fuck that
j0veyhere (9:37:06 PM): LOL
j0veyhere (9:37:08 PM): JUSS ME?
imurderpotatoes (9:37:11 PM): yeah
j0veyhere (9:37:16 PM): OH HAIL YES
imurderpotatoes (9:37:20 PM): YAH
j0veyhere (9:37:24 PM): lol
This is what he said- "I miss that baller! Haha," he sang about me with Viet on the guitar!
The LBFC/LightbytheBay/Pittsburgh Picnic was incredible:D!
Played volleyball for hours and hours ahha.
-VIET! I MISS THIS GUY! HE'S MY FAVORITE YOUTH! I remember from camp, RED TEEAM! WE WON! AHAHAH;)
-STEFAN
imurderpotatoes (8:04:38 PM): sup jigga
j0veyhere (8:12:17 PM): wassup wassup?
imurderpotatoes (8:13:03 PM): i drove from elk grove back to san jose last night
imurderpotatoes (8:13:05 PM): and then i remmebred how you told me
imurderpotatoes (8:13:09 PM): you tried to change lanes
imurderpotatoes (8:13:10 PM): and epically failed
j0veyhere (8:18:25 PM): mmhm..
j0veyhere (8:18:32 PM): where are you goign with this? XD
imurderpotatoes (8:22:28 PM): being remined of yor fail
imurderpotatoes (8:22:33 PM): made me feel pro when i was driving
imurderpotatoes (8:22:34 PM): ;D
j0veyhere (8:31:54 PM): LOL
j0veyhere (8:31:57 PM): pshhhh
j0veyhere (8:32:03 PM): ill race ya one day
j0veyhere (8:32:13 PM): one day breh, one day
imurderpotatoes (8:32:26 PM): LOl
imurderpotatoes (8:32:26 PM): you won't
imurderpotatoes (8:32:26 PM): YOU WON'T
--
imurderpotatoes (9:04:37 PM): if i had a bday party
imurderpotatoes (9:04:39 PM): would j00 comz
j0veyhere (9:05:48 PM): yes!
j0veyhere (9:05:51 PM): WE BETTER TAKE..
j0veyhere (9:05:55 PM): millions of pics(:
j0veyhere (9:05:57 PM): hahha
imurderpotatoes (9:06:41 PM): ahaha
imurderpotatoes (9:07:10 PM): butbut
imurderpotatoes (9:07:13 PM): my house is empty ):
j0veyhere (9:07:55 PM): it's coo
j0veyhere (9:08:06 PM): ill bring some silly strings and tag on your walls
j0veyhere (9:08:07 PM): HAHA.
imurderpotatoes (9:10:45 PM): LOL
imurderpotatoes (9:10:50 PM): my parents wouldn't care
imurderpotatoes (9:10:54 PM): its no longer our hosue
j0veyhere (9:11:01 PM): ROFL
j0veyhere (9:11:04 PM): OH HECK YES
imurderpotatoes (9:18:57 PM): they even said
imurderpotatoes (9:18:57 PM): you can go ahead and go wild
imurderpotatoes (9:18:57 PM): we don't care
imurderpotatoes (9:18:57 PM): it snot our hosue
j0veyhere (9:19:47 PM): LOL
j0veyhere (9:19:50 PM): OK
j0veyhere (9:19:55 PM): are they gonna be there?
imurderpotatoes (9:20:54 PM): probably not
j0veyhere (9:23:28 PM): SWEET.
j0veyhere (9:23:29 PM): lol
imurderpotatoes (9:23:41 PM): idk who i would invite though
imurderpotatoes (9:23:44 PM): or when i'd throw it
j0veyhere (9:23:48 PM): lol
j0veyhere (9:23:55 PM): do you want me to help? XD
imurderpotatoes (9:25:54 PM): do it
imurderpotatoes (9:26:27 PM): idk when i'd have it though
imurderpotatoes (9:26:27 PM): this week is chris
imurderpotatoes (9:26:27 PM): next week is gook night
j0veyhere (9:29:48 PM): ahh.
j0veyhere (9:29:51 PM): idk > <
j0veyhere (9:30:13 PM): hey what time is your practice?
imurderpotatoes (9:30:44 PM): 9-11 something
j0veyhere (9:30:54 PM): freal?
imurderpotatoes (9:30:58 PM): yeah
j0veyhere (9:32:55 PM): hmm
imurderpotatoes (9:33:04 PM): roawr
imurderpotatoes (9:33:09 PM): ima have like
imurderpotatoes (9:33:10 PM): 40 pizzas
imurderpotatoes (9:33:18 PM): my dad works for pizza hut in sac town
imurderpotatoes (9:33:22 PM): so he always brings back like
imurderpotatoes (9:33:24 PM): 40 pizzas
imurderpotatoes (9:33:26 PM): andi have so much
imurderpotatoes (9:33:30 PM): my parents just give it away
j0veyhere (9:33:52 PM): XD!
j0veyhere (9:33:53 PM): GG
j0veyhere (9:33:57 PM): that's awesome
imurderpotatoes (9:34:05 PM): dude you want pizza
imurderpotatoes (9:34:07 PM): just come to my hosue tomorrow
imurderpotatoes (9:34:09 PM): and you get a pizza
imurderpotatoes (9:34:13 PM): i shit you not
j0veyhere (9:36:39 PM): awww freals?
j0veyhere (9:36:44 PM): what time?
imurderpotatoes (9:36:47 PM): idk
imurderpotatoes (9:36:48 PM): just hit me up
j0veyhere (9:36:56 PM): ill bring amanda (:!
j0veyhere (9:36:58 PM): lol
imurderpotatoes (9:37:03 PM): no
imurderpotatoes (9:37:04 PM): fuck that
j0veyhere (9:37:06 PM): LOL
j0veyhere (9:37:08 PM): JUSS ME?
imurderpotatoes (9:37:11 PM): yeah
j0veyhere (9:37:16 PM): OH HAIL YES
imurderpotatoes (9:37:20 PM): YAH
j0veyhere (9:37:24 PM): lol
MATT(bestfriend)-
oh man, i'm keep this one coo. Haha ill put it in my other blog
AMANDA-
imurderpotatoes (9:04:37 PM): if i had a bday party
imurderpotatoes (9:04:39 PM): would j00 comz
j0veyhere (9:05:48 PM): yes!
j0veyhere (9:05:51 PM): WE BETTER TAKE..
j0veyhere (9:05:55 PM): millions of pics(:
j0veyhere (9:05:57 PM): hahha
imurderpotatoes (9:06:41 PM): ahaha
imurderpotatoes (9:07:10 PM): butbut
imurderpotatoes (9:07:13 PM): my house is empty ):
j0veyhere (9:07:55 PM): it's coo
j0veyhere (9:08:06 PM): ill bring some silly strings and tag on your walls
j0veyhere (9:08:07 PM): HAHA.
imurderpotatoes (9:10:45 PM): LOL
imurderpotatoes (9:10:50 PM): my parents wouldn't care
imurderpotatoes (9:10:54 PM): its no longer our hosue
j0veyhere (9:11:01 PM): ROFL
j0veyhere (9:11:04 PM): OH HECK YES
imurderpotatoes (9:18:57 PM): they even said
imurderpotatoes (9:18:57 PM): you can go ahead and go wild
imurderpotatoes (9:18:57 PM): we don't care
imurderpotatoes (9:18:57 PM): it snot our hosue
j0veyhere (9:19:47 PM): LOL
j0veyhere (9:19:50 PM): OK
j0veyhere (9:19:55 PM): are they gonna be there?
imurderpotatoes (9:20:54 PM): probably not
j0veyhere (9:23:28 PM): SWEET.
j0veyhere (9:23:29 PM): lol
imurderpotatoes (9:23:41 PM): idk who i would invite though
imurderpotatoes (9:23:44 PM): or when i'd throw it
j0veyhere (9:23:48 PM): lol
j0veyhere (9:23:55 PM): do you want me to help? XD
imurderpotatoes (9:25:54 PM): do it
imurderpotatoes (9:26:27 PM): idk when i'd have it though
imurderpotatoes (9:26:27 PM): this week is chris
imurderpotatoes (9:26:27 PM): next week is gook night
j0veyhere (9:29:48 PM): ahh.
j0veyhere (9:29:51 PM): idk > <
j0veyhere (9:30:13 PM): hey what time is your practice?
imurderpotatoes (9:30:44 PM): 9-11 something
j0veyhere (9:30:54 PM): freal?
imurderpotatoes (9:30:58 PM): yeah
j0veyhere (9:32:55 PM): hmm
imurderpotatoes (9:33:04 PM): roawr
imurderpotatoes (9:33:09 PM): ima have like
imurderpotatoes (9:33:10 PM): 40 pizzas
imurderpotatoes (9:33:18 PM): my dad works for pizza hut in sac town
imurderpotatoes (9:33:22 PM): so he always brings back like
imurderpotatoes (9:33:24 PM): 40 pizzas
imurderpotatoes (9:33:26 PM): andi have so much
imurderpotatoes (9:33:30 PM): my parents just give it away
j0veyhere (9:33:52 PM): XD!
j0veyhere (9:33:53 PM): GG
j0veyhere (9:33:57 PM): that's awesome
imurderpotatoes (9:34:05 PM): dude you want pizza
imurderpotatoes (9:34:07 PM): just come to my hosue tomorrow
imurderpotatoes (9:34:09 PM): and you get a pizza
imurderpotatoes (9:34:13 PM): i shit you not
j0veyhere (9:36:39 PM): awww freals?
j0veyhere (9:36:44 PM): what time?
imurderpotatoes (9:36:47 PM): idk
imurderpotatoes (9:36:48 PM): just hit me up
j0veyhere (9:36:56 PM): ill bring amanda (:!
j0veyhere (9:36:58 PM): lol
imurderpotatoes (9:37:03 PM): no
imurderpotatoes (9:37:04 PM): fuck that
j0veyhere (9:37:06 PM): LOL
j0veyhere (9:37:08 PM): JUSS ME?
imurderpotatoes (9:37:11 PM): yeah
j0veyhere (9:37:16 PM): OH HAIL YES
imurderpotatoes (9:37:20 PM): YAH
j0veyhere (9:37:24 PM): lol
Monday, April 13, 2009
4 blogs in one day?
crazy right?
My feelings are set on hold, please be patient when the time is right for me to express them
which is, not really going to happen this week, i'm out out out
Schedule
Monday-
+Bookreport
+Go to Safeway get some brownie/cake mix
+fix my clothes
+fix laundry
+5q's for history
+ball with precious today?
+play some guitar
+study
For daily duties:
+5's for history a day
+1 chapter a day for LWFC
+1 bug a day for project
Other things in mind:
_Hang out with steffy
_Bake day with amanda/diana
_Visit Jam
_Picnic
_FYC
_Leah/Jovey Duet
_FANTASTICS OHMG, when are we having a meeting?!
_other, idk. so drained right now. blah bbl
My feelings are set on hold, please be patient when the time is right for me to express them
which is, not really going to happen this week, i'm out out out
Schedule
Monday-
+Bookreport
+Go to Safeway get some brownie/cake mix
+fix my clothes
+fix laundry
+5q's for history
+ball with precious today?
+play some guitar
+study
For daily duties:
+5's for history a day
+1 chapter a day for LWFC
+1 bug a day for project
Other things in mind:
_Hang out with steffy
_Bake day with amanda/diana
_Visit Jam
_Picnic
_FYC
_Leah/Jovey Duet
_FANTASTICS OHMG, when are we having a meeting?!
_other, idk. so drained right now. blah bbl
Summer needs to visit us.
Well, SPRING BREAK STARTS TODAY!
Actually spring break started on Friday for me.
Friday-
Went out to the Sister to Sister conference, celebrating Asian/Pacific Islander women of tomorrow! We drove off to the San Jose Masonic center including Leah, Ateh Lorraine and Kuya Jeff. We walked over to the center and surrounding were so many women and young women. We made fun of Kuya Jeff(:< As Kuya Jeff walks back to his car, we are informed to stick with Ateh Razell. She told us she was to take care of us haha. We signed in, got our name tags and sat near the stage. We waited a whole hour to start. Unfortunately, we could've been sleeping by now, wow. Leah and I played tap tap on Ateh Lorraine's iTouch for the rest of the time, then it died. We met some YB girls and one of them asked us about Leslie, akward. Haha. After waiting for a few min, there were these asian drummers, they looked happy when they played(: It grew attention to my ears because they were so loud haha. Our guest speaker/ host was Jeannie Mai! She's pretty, but skinny, THATS A GOOD THING. Hah. Well, everything went pretty well through the workshops, I didn't find any of them boring. We learned about watching our step for the future, Sexual health, and we had a Hiphop workshop(: This little middle school girl was a great dancer. She basically mirrored the teacher! Pretty cool! We got our goodies (bag) and left for the final gathering. There was cake placed on the table and I heard, "FREE BOBA!" My eyes went from -.- to O.O So I ran to one side, but there were so many girls in line, I went to the other side to check, and HAZAAA, I found no one near it and took 3(: Haha, genius! After everything (sorry can't really type out everything) I took a red balloon and an orange flower home(: I felt revived of my rights of being a young lady. WOW, how girly! Rawr. There are those times ;) We drove off. We got so bored, we went to Eastridge. MY BALLOON FLEW OFF MY PANTS, it flew all the way up in the middle of the mall > < gahh. Whatever Lorrainee! Blah, SOO, We went around to Papaya, Journeys, Shoe palace, (Imma get those pumas!) Then to daiso, lady was mean! She wouldnt let me exchange the item i just bought. Anyways, I got a clear umbrella and a white umbrella hahah. Then we went home woo. Tough day.
Saturday-
I ran to Lake Cunningham at 8am, finally "Jovey time" and yea, I went to my spot. I made friends with Freddy, my new best geese buddy. I spoke with him, he quacked back. Yea, I ran in the inner circle, then the whole park. I say Pastor sam, GOSH hes so old I don't even recognize him anymore, we chilled and talked. Step's dad is weird XD jk jk steph. haha. Hmm, I was about to walk out of the park, but then this guy came up to me and started evangelizing to me. I understood that he wants people to be saved, and to understand that God exists, but he said he was a Jehovah's witness. I didn't know what to do. Was I supposed to ignore him or give him my full attention? I didn't understand what the difference was between a Jehovah's witness a christian and a catholic. Why do we have to be organized, or separated by our beliefs? We all know there is a God. Hmm, those are the questions that fear me. WELL, other than that I went out with Leah again! We went to the Alum Rock something center lol. It was for honoring the filipino veterans who fought in WWII. It was interesting learning about their history and what they had to go through. FYC was there we walked in with Mike Honda, he drives a honda haha. I shook hands with Chuck Reed 2x and Mike honda once. Everything went pretty well, Leah introduced me to the Milpitas' filipino club president. She's a sophomore o.o Wow, Leah and I thought she was a Junior. How weird. Usually it's a Senior. Well, we chatted for a little while and I asked her if she knew Mark Beleno and she said yeap! She knew I went to church with him haha. Bleh. We waited until everyone left. Just Leah, AJ, Ian, Me, Kuya Jeff, Kuya Mark, Auntie Sarah, Jean, and some other people. We just listened to music on Kuya Mark's big stereos. Hmm, listened to OLD ASS HIPHOP. Wow, Kuya Mark is old haha. I liked his cornrolls haha. Well, that's all xp. After, they dropped me off at my cousin's house. It's been a while since we've all hung out together. WE GOT SO BORED, we went to that Japanese manga store that Kuya Jason and I went to before. Then we went to the Japanese market next to it and bought SOOO MUCHH FOOD! Hahah. I got Lychee drink (Calpico) Crushed Almond Pocky, Read bean cake hahah, and Rice crackers. Friggen Ashley wanted to buy some udon ahha. Weird. Later, we went to Valley Fair just because we were so bored. Ateh Ann bought us lotion woot finally, I've been wanting someone else to buy me lotion haha. I'm drinking my lychee right now (: Hmm, we went back to my cousin's house, I was playing taptap on Kuya Jason's ipod. tehee. Went back, uhm played some pusoy, and strategic 13. JC knows the guitar songs that I know :D! Cool! Now we can play together! But he says it'd be gay if we did haha. Loserrr. Cool cousin bonding mayyunnn. We went home(:! What a day, I didn't even bother going on the internet that day, I just went straight to my bed. I felt sore and fat because of all the filipino/asian foods haha. Great day.
Sunday- WOW, Woke up 9am to go to church at 10 haha, early service! Why? Easter Sunday! We celebrated with Alum Rock covenant church, Philadelphia church and our church. Long day, I felt proud to be in a church with other churches you know? You get that feeling of a friendly connection. We sang soul hymn ahaha, it was pretty cool! Uhm, basically, I had a great time listening to the message and understanding that Easter isn't always about eggs and bunnies. Now I know why they make the bunny a symbol of easter haha. By the way, the children's play was very cute! I liked their fake gladiator shoes hahah. Hmm, we ate some cake wow, that's all we ate, and we played outside. Hmm, OHMG, I saw Kuya Jasper, Ate Kristine, Ateh Steph, Ateh pearl, Kuya Bryan, Kyle, and so many other older and younger youth! We really should get together mann! I missed these youth! Sigh, lol. It was like 1pm and we got so bored we just went to Shoreline! It was a great place. Seriously, the people are very nice and heart warming. Kuya Dino brought his longboard. OH yeeee. hahah. Ah man I've always wanted one! I skated on a downhill, awesome. It barely went into the lake nearby, but you know what else happened? Bubba (Ateh mill's nephew)'s soccer ball went into the lake >
So I just got a call saying we couldn't go swimming today with the youth or play basketball because it's cold and it'd be weird if we all just played basketball, so we've rescheduled. Hmm, picnic is on wednesday. Yeupp. NO I'm not going to wear a summer dress hahah, I'm going to wear some shorts and sneeekuhhs. Volleyball and basketball yeeap! It's gonna be fun! Ohoh! And I get to talk to Albert now, I felt bad for not talking at the rally )= Hmm. And Pittsburgh is going! Woooo...o.
Another thing to look on, KB and Ateh Mill make a cute couple, but when the girls + me were chitchatting with KB in the car, KB said, you have to enjoy your singleness because when you're married, it's 27 until the day you die. And sometimes we won't be able to get that kind of freedom and soon we'll look back in the past missing everything we've done on our own. So, this is why I'm telling you, DONT GET MARRIED!
Haha what a jerk. lol.
My drug:
-lbfc youth
-kasama/fyc
-running
Feelings and thoughts-
I miss Jam
I miss Amanda
I miss Jonathan
I miss the good old times.
Actually spring break started on Friday for me.
Friday-
Went out to the Sister to Sister conference, celebrating Asian/Pacific Islander women of tomorrow! We drove off to the San Jose Masonic center including Leah, Ateh Lorraine and Kuya Jeff. We walked over to the center and surrounding were so many women and young women. We made fun of Kuya Jeff(:< As Kuya Jeff walks back to his car, we are informed to stick with Ateh Razell. She told us she was to take care of us haha. We signed in, got our name tags and sat near the stage. We waited a whole hour to start. Unfortunately, we could've been sleeping by now, wow. Leah and I played tap tap on Ateh Lorraine's iTouch for the rest of the time, then it died. We met some YB girls and one of them asked us about Leslie, akward. Haha. After waiting for a few min, there were these asian drummers, they looked happy when they played(: It grew attention to my ears because they were so loud haha. Our guest speaker/ host was Jeannie Mai! She's pretty, but skinny, THATS A GOOD THING. Hah. Well, everything went pretty well through the workshops, I didn't find any of them boring. We learned about watching our step for the future, Sexual health, and we had a Hiphop workshop(: This little middle school girl was a great dancer. She basically mirrored the teacher! Pretty cool! We got our goodies (bag) and left for the final gathering. There was cake placed on the table and I heard, "FREE BOBA!" My eyes went from -.- to O.O So I ran to one side, but there were so many girls in line, I went to the other side to check, and HAZAAA, I found no one near it and took 3(: Haha, genius! After everything (sorry can't really type out everything) I took a red balloon and an orange flower home(: I felt revived of my rights of being a young lady. WOW, how girly! Rawr. There are those times ;) We drove off. We got so bored, we went to Eastridge. MY BALLOON FLEW OFF MY PANTS, it flew all the way up in the middle of the mall > < gahh. Whatever Lorrainee! Blah, SOO, We went around to Papaya, Journeys, Shoe palace, (Imma get those pumas!) Then to daiso, lady was mean! She wouldnt let me exchange the item i just bought. Anyways, I got a clear umbrella and a white umbrella hahah. Then we went home woo. Tough day.
Saturday-
I ran to Lake Cunningham at 8am, finally "Jovey time" and yea, I went to my spot. I made friends with Freddy, my new best geese buddy. I spoke with him, he quacked back. Yea, I ran in the inner circle, then the whole park. I say Pastor sam, GOSH hes so old I don't even recognize him anymore, we chilled and talked. Step's dad is weird XD jk jk steph. haha. Hmm, I was about to walk out of the park, but then this guy came up to me and started evangelizing to me. I understood that he wants people to be saved, and to understand that God exists, but he said he was a Jehovah's witness. I didn't know what to do. Was I supposed to ignore him or give him my full attention? I didn't understand what the difference was between a Jehovah's witness a christian and a catholic. Why do we have to be organized, or separated by our beliefs? We all know there is a God. Hmm, those are the questions that fear me. WELL, other than that I went out with Leah again! We went to the Alum Rock something center lol. It was for honoring the filipino veterans who fought in WWII. It was interesting learning about their history and what they had to go through. FYC was there we walked in with Mike Honda, he drives a honda haha. I shook hands with Chuck Reed 2x and Mike honda once. Everything went pretty well, Leah introduced me to the Milpitas' filipino club president. She's a sophomore o.o Wow, Leah and I thought she was a Junior. How weird. Usually it's a Senior. Well, we chatted for a little while and I asked her if she knew Mark Beleno and she said yeap! She knew I went to church with him haha. Bleh. We waited until everyone left. Just Leah, AJ, Ian, Me, Kuya Jeff, Kuya Mark, Auntie Sarah, Jean, and some other people. We just listened to music on Kuya Mark's big stereos. Hmm, listened to OLD ASS HIPHOP. Wow, Kuya Mark is old haha. I liked his cornrolls haha. Well, that's all xp. After, they dropped me off at my cousin's house. It's been a while since we've all hung out together. WE GOT SO BORED, we went to that Japanese manga store that Kuya Jason and I went to before. Then we went to the Japanese market next to it and bought SOOO MUCHH FOOD! Hahah. I got Lychee drink (Calpico) Crushed Almond Pocky, Read bean cake hahah, and Rice crackers. Friggen Ashley wanted to buy some udon ahha. Weird. Later, we went to Valley Fair just because we were so bored. Ateh Ann bought us lotion woot finally, I've been wanting someone else to buy me lotion haha. I'm drinking my lychee right now (: Hmm, we went back to my cousin's house, I was playing taptap on Kuya Jason's ipod. tehee. Went back, uhm played some pusoy, and strategic 13. JC knows the guitar songs that I know :D! Cool! Now we can play together! But he says it'd be gay if we did haha. Loserrr. Cool cousin bonding mayyunnn. We went home(:! What a day, I didn't even bother going on the internet that day, I just went straight to my bed. I felt sore and fat because of all the filipino/asian foods haha. Great day.
Sunday- WOW, Woke up 9am to go to church at 10 haha, early service! Why? Easter Sunday! We celebrated with Alum Rock covenant church, Philadelphia church and our church. Long day, I felt proud to be in a church with other churches you know? You get that feeling of a friendly connection. We sang soul hymn ahaha, it was pretty cool! Uhm, basically, I had a great time listening to the message and understanding that Easter isn't always about eggs and bunnies. Now I know why they make the bunny a symbol of easter haha. By the way, the children's play was very cute! I liked their fake gladiator shoes hahah. Hmm, we ate some cake wow, that's all we ate, and we played outside. Hmm, OHMG, I saw Kuya Jasper, Ate Kristine, Ateh Steph, Ateh pearl, Kuya Bryan, Kyle, and so many other older and younger youth! We really should get together mann! I missed these youth! Sigh, lol. It was like 1pm and we got so bored we just went to Shoreline! It was a great place. Seriously, the people are very nice and heart warming. Kuya Dino brought his longboard. OH yeeee. hahah. Ah man I've always wanted one! I skated on a downhill, awesome. It barely went into the lake nearby, but you know what else happened? Bubba (Ateh mill's nephew)'s soccer ball went into the lake >
So I just got a call saying we couldn't go swimming today with the youth or play basketball because it's cold and it'd be weird if we all just played basketball, so we've rescheduled. Hmm, picnic is on wednesday. Yeupp. NO I'm not going to wear a summer dress hahah, I'm going to wear some shorts and sneeekuhhs. Volleyball and basketball yeeap! It's gonna be fun! Ohoh! And I get to talk to Albert now, I felt bad for not talking at the rally )= Hmm. And Pittsburgh is going! Woooo...o.
Another thing to look on, KB and Ateh Mill make a cute couple, but when the girls + me were chitchatting with KB in the car, KB said, you have to enjoy your singleness because when you're married, it's 27 until the day you die. And sometimes we won't be able to get that kind of freedom and soon we'll look back in the past missing everything we've done on our own. So, this is why I'm telling you, DONT GET MARRIED!
Haha what a jerk. lol.
My drug:
-lbfc youth
-kasama/fyc
-running
Feelings and thoughts-
I miss Jam
I miss Amanda
I miss Jonathan
I miss the good old times.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
one more thing
don't think that I write these things for no reason, a few months before, hey I've read them, you probably did too, see what kind of a person like me has changed within the school year? I hate it too, seeing yourself change, and seeing that you want things the way they used to be, but forget it. If I can't go on living like I am right now, how am I supposed to know how I even got this far? The past is what makes you, you. The present is what makes you, you. The future, it depends on your past and present. So I take things seriously, and hey if you think you made the wrong decisions in the past, do something now and recover, say that you can finally forget the past because you know you want to get over it. Become a better person. And being gullable is not cute. You've got to know your mistakes and UNDERSTAND them at the same time, otherwise, you're stuck in a dilemma of your past and the present. There wouldn't be anything looking forward to in the future.
Seriously, it's your decisions
Seriously, it's your decisions
I CANNOT SLEEP
Because of this weird intellectual sickness of speaking like a professional fake nerd, I shall begin my "confession session" confrontation. For, I feel that there's a purpose why I am not helplessly conscious in my comfortable mattress. How should I start, where should I start? Is there a starting point to this blog entry? Let's find out.
Lately, I've had many corrupt mood swings obviously because of this female process as matruity approaches. But how much pain can I take in and reject the surrounding world? What is the cure to this internal pain that causes me to express angry indications? There are times when I fail but continue to let myself fall and just carelessly do whatever I can to satisfy the needs of my stress. And what do I do? Nothing. There's nowhere in the world to hide from this "thing" shall we call. I would go so far to the east and ask in British, "May I have a sip from your cup oh tea?" Why indeed, I stuff myself with no standards. Without standards or limits, I have the freedom. But how long will this process continue? For, I cannot take this. There is no advantage to this curse, but hey, do women not like to be fully grown and proud? How bout that? I'm unable to sustain this fight. Wait, I thoughtfully meant HOW DO YOU REPENT OF THIS PAIN? Hah, I laugh. There's nothing we can do. Praying that God will help me, my mistakes flash before me. Why? Why, in the most hurtful time? Keep the date, keep in touch, keep going. There's one week left. I think, I think I can't speak "SMART" anymore. Hahhaha(:
FTW, I'm so random. Hey, there's always a good story from random people.
Lately, I've had many corrupt mood swings obviously because of this female process as matruity approaches. But how much pain can I take in and reject the surrounding world? What is the cure to this internal pain that causes me to express angry indications? There are times when I fail but continue to let myself fall and just carelessly do whatever I can to satisfy the needs of my stress. And what do I do? Nothing. There's nowhere in the world to hide from this "thing" shall we call. I would go so far to the east and ask in British, "May I have a sip from your cup oh tea?" Why indeed, I stuff myself with no standards. Without standards or limits, I have the freedom. But how long will this process continue? For, I cannot take this. There is no advantage to this curse, but hey, do women not like to be fully grown and proud? How bout that? I'm unable to sustain this fight. Wait, I thoughtfully meant HOW DO YOU REPENT OF THIS PAIN? Hah, I laugh. There's nothing we can do. Praying that God will help me, my mistakes flash before me. Why? Why, in the most hurtful time? Keep the date, keep in touch, keep going. There's one week left. I think, I think I can't speak "SMART" anymore. Hahhaha(:
FTW, I'm so random. Hey, there's always a good story from random people.
Keep it I don't need it
JAM IS EXTREMELY SICK):
Tis well! I shall make him a get well card!
Spring break stuff:
_Bake day with Diana!
^This girl needs to come over and visit!
_Bake day with Amanda!
_Buy some Levis with Chris Delacruz
_Hang out with Kuya Aaron
_Run to LCP with Precious? or ball?
_Visit Jam
_Pittsburg/Lightbythebay/ LBFC picnic
_Decorations for Fantastics?
_Book Report
_Bug hunting with Jessica yum..
..More but would not like to mention it in this blog
Tis well! I shall make him a get well card!
Spring break stuff:
_Bake day with Diana!
^This girl needs to come over and visit!
_Bake day with Amanda!
_Buy some Levis with Chris Delacruz
_Hang out with Kuya Aaron
_Run to LCP with Precious? or ball?
_Visit Jam
_Pittsburg/Lightbythebay/ LBFC picnic
_Decorations for Fantastics?
_Book Report
_Bug hunting with Jessica yum..
..More but would not like to mention it in this blog
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
I'm listening
Although I want to help so badly, all I can do place pity upon them.
How horrible I am.
--Outty, FYC
How horrible I am.
--Outty, FYC
Monday, April 6, 2009
Smooth Schedule
What an interesting day today was. Everything was in order. This does not often happen to me. How interesting. If only my schedule is as stable as today's. I liked today to be honest. In the morning, Lovato gave us a pretty decent test. Of course, only now, did he not include quotes. Those what throw me off on his Vocab tests. Ms. Burt wasn't here so we watched the sandwich video. There was no point in bringing my book and binder, but hey I got some questions done! Brunch, played 13 again haha. I was about to head over to the Sophomore quad, but I was too lazy to go through that crowded corner ledge. Then spanish came, we barely did anything, but oh crap. I forgot to do that hw! Nooo! Let me not kill my mood! Haha. Skip 4th period! Hahah. Precal, ohh confusing but I think I can get through it(=! Bio, I can't believe I got a bad score on my notebook check, 0/50? and 0/20? Redickyoulaasss. But it was fun, Amanda was my partner for the chart thing. Lol I don't even remember what the title of the worksheet was. I call my dad to come over and pick me up from school. He told me to drive. Tis indubitably fun! (: He said I'm getting better! I'm proud of myself. Haha. When I came home, I got dressed and went straight to the fridge. Yum, leftover steak ); Hahah. And pasta! And more foods. I ate so much, my body produced energy. From all the vitamin C's from the Cuties and other products. I felt very energetic today! I accomplished all of my homework, which took me about 2 hours and a half to do. STRAIGHT. With a few breaks in the middle because I kept eating desserts. Tehee. Later, I went on the net and did a little photoshop! I made a new shirt design for fantstics, and I'm thinking it should be a final design since I'm tired of changing it. I read Like Water for Chocolate Chapter 8 (August) and wow did time by so fast? Hahah Amazing how much fun you could have by reading this book. Well there's a test on this tomorrow and so I'm going to go ahead and review or check on sparknotes for further analysis. And study for Espanol! I'm such a nerd right now haha
Today was a nice day! The weather was soothing and I enjoyed it!
--Excerpt from my hidden blog
V V V V V V V V V V V V V V V V V V V V
' ..We both know that this is a big deal in a horrible situation in which, we can't have a say in or else we'll be considered to be looked down upon. If anything, you know we're not alone and we're always going to have someone who will be there for us..'
Today was a nice day! The weather was soothing and I enjoyed it!
--Excerpt from my hidden blog
V V V V V V V V V V V V V V V V V V V V
' ..We both know that this is a big deal in a horrible situation in which, we can't have a say in or else we'll be considered to be looked down upon. If anything, you know we're not alone and we're always going to have someone who will be there for us..'
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Past blogs
If I meant to say all those things in the past, why aren't I keeping my word?
I've given in too much. And how can I say that I've forgotten the past? Forgiveness.
I've given in too much. And how can I say that I've forgotten the past? Forgiveness.
Friday, April 3, 2009
No role
I can't explain what kind of position I'm in with my family.
I can't explain what kind of horrible doings my dad is doing.
Is it a good thing to let this just happen?
Is this really for the children's sake?
Am I doing what he says for a good cause?
Am I listening to the right commands?
How now am I supposed to keep up?
How now am I supposed to compromise with what my dad is doing?
Can we just move out already?
Can we just move on already?
If these acts keep going on
my privilege of what I usually do
will comprise of nothing.
I want something new, something I need.
I want to get away from this, something I don't need.
I can't explain what kind of horrible doings my dad is doing.
Is it a good thing to let this just happen?
Is this really for the children's sake?
Am I doing what he says for a good cause?
Am I listening to the right commands?
How now am I supposed to keep up?
How now am I supposed to compromise with what my dad is doing?
Can we just move out already?
Can we just move on already?
If these acts keep going on
my privilege of what I usually do
will comprise of nothing.
I want something new, something I need.
I want to get away from this, something I don't need.
No title
The separation between mutiny and purity
If life would be equal, there would be no problems
But the insane thought of causing one, is self-assurance
Motivation and encouragement is the key to influential decisions,
including yearning for what we don't have.
Thinking that we are able to survive in this wild world,
we are actually thinking of the good life here.
What kind of life is so good if we all face struggles?
What kind of life is so perfect if we aren't living in a "heavenly palace"?
You're either one or the other
no other option to take.
Growing up to see other people change in their lives,
you, me, he, she
we're all in this hell hole
Something we can't bear to stand alone.
We are given an opportunity to live,
to see what the world does to others?
No to take up a stand and make a better place for all of us
There's a calling from some unknown presence
it's warning you
I can see them trippin over stupid nonsense
if living the good life is to drug yourself into worldly things
then there'll be no "heavenly palace" for their feet to set upon
The separation between mutiny and purity
If life would be equal, there would be no problems
But the insane thought of causing one, is self-assurance
Motivation and encouragement is the key to influential decisions,
including yearning for what we don't have.
Thinking that we are able to survive in this wild world,
we are actually thinking of the good life here.
What kind of life is so good if we all face struggles?
What kind of life is so perfect if we aren't living in a "heavenly palace"?
You're either one or the other
no other option to take.
Growing up to see other people change in their lives,
you, me, he, she
we're all in this hell hole
Something we can't bear to stand alone.
We are given an opportunity to live,
to see what the world does to others?
No to take up a stand and make a better place for all of us
There's a calling from some unknown presence
it's warning you
I can see them trippin over stupid nonsense
if living the good life is to drug yourself into worldly things
then there'll be no "heavenly palace" for their feet to set upon
The separation between mutiny and purity
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Hide and Seek
Favorite songs- the ones on my myspace haha. Let's leave it at that
What a boring Thursday. All I did was sleep sleep sleep in my classes. Of course a few teachers tried to abruptly interrupt my peace, but hey it's not cool to sleep huh? In spanish class I kept in mind, "Yo necessito mas duerme porque.. yo no se!" Haha. Talk about spanish. Now that I've mentioned this class, Sean still can't see the final decision I've made with him. For some reason he still sees me the same way. The same way? The same way when things used to be pretty cool between us when we used to like each other. Silly boy, he still gets at me and gives me those awkward stares. Every time he does that to me, I give him a nasty glare as if saying, "Back off, I mean it." I'm struggling to find my way out on him, but it's hard to let go. On with the show,
Fantasics meeting was alright. Sign up is still going on! Idea that I came up with: Students who are attending for a character position must bring at least 5 people outside of the comittee to come watch Fantastics, dancers- at least. Uhm other than that, I need to figure out how to make the villain's costumes. Kasama? I don't know what's going on for BOTT. Whatever.
Peekaboo. After walking home from school, I was getting kinda hot and sweaty for some reason. Yea, exactly, what? When it was such a windy day? I didn't bother to put on my sweater because it was hot. After running from p.e. I cooled down of course, but I was burning up. While I was walking home, I noticed that my vision was a little blurry every time I blinked. When I reached to the back of my house, my head started to seriously spin. Major headache and cramps. I took out my key and unlocked the door. As soon as I stepped in, I dropped my stuff and fell to the floor. I probably laid there for an hour and a half I have no idea. But when I stood up, I can see that my cats ran out in front of me and scared the living crap out of me. Unsteadily, I just laid on the floor again. The wind came by, and my door still wide open. How can I just suddenly fall to the ground. I ignored the whole thing for a while. So I dressed up into my home clothes, and quickly fronted my fridge. Surprisingly, I couldn't find anything to eat but icecream. So I ate icecream. Beautiful, rich, creamy ube icecream. I walked over to my computer and edited some old photos on photoshop. I found out that my stomach was twitching. Like something hiding inside me is telling me, "Let me out" I stopped eating my icecream and went to the bathroom, but before I could even turn the knob, my knees just bailed on me. Again, I'm on the damn cold floor wishing that my stomach would stop hurting me. Ughhhh. How painful it was.
I AM NOT PREGNANT. lol
So whatever, I went to bed woke up at 6ish, went to costco bought pills drove back ate some pizza and finish reading. BORING WAY TO END IT, but hey, I didn't know what to do. Today near the end of the night, my time started again
What a boring Thursday. All I did was sleep sleep sleep in my classes. Of course a few teachers tried to abruptly interrupt my peace, but hey it's not cool to sleep huh? In spanish class I kept in mind, "Yo necessito mas duerme porque.. yo no se!" Haha. Talk about spanish. Now that I've mentioned this class, Sean still can't see the final decision I've made with him. For some reason he still sees me the same way. The same way? The same way when things used to be pretty cool between us when we used to like each other. Silly boy, he still gets at me and gives me those awkward stares. Every time he does that to me, I give him a nasty glare as if saying, "Back off, I mean it." I'm struggling to find my way out on him, but it's hard to let go. On with the show,
Fantasics meeting was alright. Sign up is still going on! Idea that I came up with: Students who are attending for a character position must bring at least 5 people outside of the comittee to come watch Fantastics, dancers- at least. Uhm other than that, I need to figure out how to make the villain's costumes. Kasama? I don't know what's going on for BOTT. Whatever.
Peekaboo. After walking home from school, I was getting kinda hot and sweaty for some reason. Yea, exactly, what? When it was such a windy day? I didn't bother to put on my sweater because it was hot. After running from p.e. I cooled down of course, but I was burning up. While I was walking home, I noticed that my vision was a little blurry every time I blinked. When I reached to the back of my house, my head started to seriously spin. Major headache and cramps. I took out my key and unlocked the door. As soon as I stepped in, I dropped my stuff and fell to the floor. I probably laid there for an hour and a half I have no idea. But when I stood up, I can see that my cats ran out in front of me and scared the living crap out of me. Unsteadily, I just laid on the floor again. The wind came by, and my door still wide open. How can I just suddenly fall to the ground. I ignored the whole thing for a while. So I dressed up into my home clothes, and quickly fronted my fridge. Surprisingly, I couldn't find anything to eat but icecream. So I ate icecream. Beautiful, rich, creamy ube icecream. I walked over to my computer and edited some old photos on photoshop. I found out that my stomach was twitching. Like something hiding inside me is telling me, "Let me out" I stopped eating my icecream and went to the bathroom, but before I could even turn the knob, my knees just bailed on me. Again, I'm on the damn cold floor wishing that my stomach would stop hurting me. Ughhhh. How painful it was.
I AM NOT PREGNANT. lol
So whatever, I went to bed woke up at 6ish, went to costco bought pills drove back ate some pizza and finish reading. BORING WAY TO END IT, but hey, I didn't know what to do. Today near the end of the night, my time started again
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