What's on my mind today

What I did: Lately, I've been slacking off in school. Sometimes I put myself down soo much it sometimes actually help me. Haha. Right now, the two subjects I reaaally dislike is Spanish II and Biology. For Spanish II, it doesn't seem like I'm gaining anything from it. I totally bombed the test we took, it was only the second part that killed me, I got everything else perfect. I wasn't very satisfied. I have ways of encouragement. But I just don't do them sometimes. In Biology, I guess I'm kind of learning, but it's mostly a review. I really preferred Mr. Dang as my Bio teacher. Because in the past, my brothers had him and they made a real good impression on him. I think that I always get the worst teachers between my two brothers. It happened to me in Elementary till now. Seriously. It should all change right? Me, study more, read more, do my homework on time. STAY AWAKE. hahah. Today I learned a lot about Bio `cause it was only 2-3 pages. And yea, it kind of dealt with me. I like to read interesting things if it compares or contrasts to my interests. It's got to be on the same level you know? Well, this chapter, it was talking about Carbohydrates. Hahaha it's awesome. I think that Bio is killing me right now. Math Anal. is ohk. I have a 126% woot woot. Back to Spanish, I just kind of lure my teacher into giving me an easy A if I confess what I did you know? Like, she feels sorry for me so she extends the due date for me haha. Am I that innocent? Hahah. ^^ XCountry was good. Did maxes on weights. My legs were burnnninnnggg! Haha, but hey, no pain no gain right?


Feelings: My feelings hmm. I feel good. Teehee. I just had a weird feeling when my history teacher said "It's better off being single, so you don't have to deal with any of that relationship crap." And she literally said that. But hey, SHE' S SINGLE! Lol, so I'll probably take part in her statement. I disagree and disagree. I'm neutral. Sometimes I can't decide haha. So my mind is set on care-freeeeeeeeee.. ness! (: I feel pretty tired. I just finished my Bio hw. What a butt this week is! Tomorrow I have to go to a meeting, it's plyols too! And I heard it's like more than 600's grrrneeesss. Hmm. I'm too tireddd! Lol.


Love life: Hmm. Well, it's not love, but in this case we can say that ;] My love life so far, it's ohk I guess. I don't really want to deal with relationships. But the LUST, it's getting to me -_- Too much sexual stuff going on. In books, outside of school, in school, jeeeez. Let's say, I like this certain MAN, wait no, he's a guy. But uhm, I'm not interested in relationships. Liking that certain person, I'm fine with just dreaming and hoping but not actually.. happening. ? BLAH. And well here's another guy. But I don't find anything interesting. Yea we can mess around and stuff, he would I guess flirt with me. But I don't feel that kind of emotion towards him. Not really. I know he has something towards me, but I just don't. He said to me "I like how you react" Because in class, he would just watch me, then I lift my head up when I did my work, and he'd be there just smiling with a sweet smile that greets me warmly. Yet it was just a moment that passed by. Well he doesn't matter that much to me. He's a friend and I want him to just accept me only as a friend. So yea [:

++there's too much dreaming with guys. My head went cuhhhrrazzzyyy! I got nothing done in class one time cause I daydreamed xDD



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Tomorrow- Martin's WaterPolo Game @ EV vs PHHS
OCT2- Ma'Boo'Hay Talent Showcase
OCT12- Diabetes Walk (Volunteers)
OCT17- Fall Leadership Conference @ INDE
OCT19- Fall Leadership Conference @ EVHS
OCT25- Light the Night (buy MishShirt by Next Thrs.)