How much of this is going to last?

I think I'm getting sick, in some sort of various ways.


I'm getting sick of old, bad habits, and new habits.
I don't know. Am I not satisfied?
I know it's common to stir up small feelings inside
but really, do I really need this?
I've been praising, worshiping my God, our God
I love Him so much to give me people to love
and to be loved back by them
But no matter the circumstances,
I always fail him.



We're talking, and I'm glad we're talking.
But when I hear a story about a guy who says
"I pray that we won't be attached, and I'd like to stay best friends like this",
then in makes me want to back off,
and I want to back off everyone's personal space.
It's not that I'm ready for relationships
It's about God.
If I can't please my God
what is there to do with infatuation?
So, what am I supposed to do?
Avoid the situation?
I really enjoy talking to this guy
and hopefully, I'm praying
he may not be the one.
i watch movies, tv shows
i've got to wait
i can't base my feelings on this guy
just because we can keep up good conversations.


i don't want to make the same mistakes.
AGAIN.

What is up with me?


I meet great guys, having unlimited chats about whatever in the world I want to talk about. But why is it so hard for me to accept that I'm never ready for a relationship?


SEE? I'm sick of even mentioning the word!
I've been going to girl's ministry
been talking to girls outside of the ministry

and i don't know who to follow
i'm getting different messages.

Everything is so confusing. I needa chill. Arright.






it's ok, when school starts, i wont have time for people,
therefore, i wont have time for BOYS.

because if boys are stupid and we get confused in our own little girl's world, we're stupid, thus making us all stupid, because no one will understand the concept between the mind functions of gender.