Plans got ruined )=

"Yadiiggg?"



Version00

Come by my way
tell me a story and take me away

I am like clay
I can't move around
I stay
in one place
I'm standing around
the world I found
is moving without me
I can't move

Take a seat
I'm glad we could meet
Shape me and make me
create me
into
something you and I have never seen before
But be careful
dont drop any part of me
on that hard wooden floor

What will it be for today? will I be a pot
a cup, a vase?
Or will you leave the thought
to me?
Embrace this grace you've given
It's the afternoon, I've been
sitting here in the heat
just, go and take your seat


Spin me around until my body is improved
its funny,
you can change me
yet I still can't move
Take great hold of me
Use your hands freely
Because right now, I'm all you need


Your time has gone by
you've been here by my side
You know, I'm not perfect
but in your eyes
you just don't want to break me when I'm done
my time is still on the run


I think we can take a break
come back when you want to make
me feel special again

Placed me into a storage
and went out into the world
How can I ever forget that you were my one and only girl?


^^What an interesting poem(=

Jovey, out

Hello, goodbye

Part 1
She has a unique name, almost as unique as mine ;). She's athletic, energetic, artistic, and talkative, so if you ask her how her day went, she's bound to give you an interesting answer. Jovelyn Gruspe, she's a good photographer /photoshopper, and did I mention that she's photogenic too? :D I've known her since '07-'08, with Battle of the Tribes being the first time we actually met in person. The first thought that popped into my mind when I first met her was, "Dayuuum, she's cute!" (:

Your about me (2)
Well, I cant describe her well enough, but I can give you 10 pieces of advice. 1. If you ever give her piggyback rides around your school, she'll get nervous whenever people walkby and she'll want to hop off 2. When you're talking to her and she starts to say "uhmmm" a lot and starts to get all giddy, it means she's really nervous, but it's actually really cute. 3. If you give her clothes for a gift, spray it with some good cologne so she'll wear it more often.

Your about me (3)
4. If you have a perfomance, invite her to watch. She'll make you feel comfortable when your onstage performing. 5. When she tells you she needs to focus on other things, let her, and know that it pays to be patient. 6. If she tells you not to worry, worry, but dont tell her so she wont have to worry about you. Know what I'm sayyiiiin? 7. If she needs someone to talk to, be there for her. Whether she needs someone to vent to, or if she needs advice. But your advice better be good!

Your about me (4)
8. Don't let her blame herself or believe that it's her fault, because you know it sucks to see her down when she deserves to be happy. 9.Value your time with her, cause most likely the time without her will feel twice as long. 10. When she tells you to write her an about me, make it good, because there's no comparison to how well she writes. It won't matter if this about me is short or long, cause you should be getting to know her! So go! Add her and hit that comment button!

Jovey, out

Explain to me

Why girl's are so complicated.

^^You would probably respond, "Wow, you're one to talk."
I am complicated, I tend to forget things, misplace things, change my mind, reject, harm in any possible way that I won't be able to notice and understand why I would do it. Interesting.

I've been thinking, and if I could get away from every possible problems or bad situation, I would be wherever He takes me. I'm waiting till I lay in heaven with Him. That's satisfying enough. From Kuya Jayjay, I learned that there are steps to have a strong relationship with God. There are 3 steps that we go through, one is accepting Jesus Christ, 2 is keeping faithful, 3 is taking the next step, but there are two difficult steps that come, they are the two that most people struggle with, especially young people. Saying that they're find where they stand, they don't need the rest, they're satisfied enough. But enough isn't enough when that time comes. These steps form a cross, and I wish I wrote it down in my notes, but it's something worth listening for. I'll prob ask for the outline later. But what caught me was the part where we tend to take a break from serving the Lord. And that is how I feel. I'm satisfied with where I stand, I dono't want to go further into it. Just because of all these distractions, I can't go on with the relationship between God and I. And everytime I attempt to go further into my faith, I feel that I fail everyone else. I always think, if it's God's will, then thy will be done. I keep that in mind, ALL THE TIME.


Maybe I need a break, from my mouth. My mouth is the one that discovers the true selfishness inside of me.






Breakdown.mp3

Jovey, out

The world keeps going round and round

I had a great Sunday morning. I even sang Sunday Morning today(=, well technically, on Sunday, since right now is Monday. Church was so much fun today. Everyone came that day(= Saw Leslie, Angelica, and Morganne again! They all wore floral dresses. Tehee. Everyone said I had cute outfit today, I was like, but it's too simple, they all wore floral! I think I would've preferred going floral just like them. Praise and Worship practice was psychedelic! So like, Kuya jade was on the elec guitar, Kuya Carey was on the base, Kuya Mark was on the drums, my bro Nate was on the sax, and I was on the piano. Kuya Jade started making a totally wicked rhythm, then Kuya Mark started playing a jazzy beat, and kuya Carey hit it on that base, my bro made a jazzy solo with all three, and I played some upbeat high notes to add a cute little tune. It was awesome! It was like the 80's! Hahahah, we're gonna start jammin all the time before the actual praise and worship. It was siiiiick. Came by DBC, remembered thme(=, Lani, and the seniors + Kuya(now considered as Pastor) Jayjay. Hilarious, he called me Lily(x instead of lenlen. Wow, good game. We finished service then Nicole called me off to the back in the kitchen to start making smoothies for people to buy. Unfortunately, it was a horrible outcome. We had extra fruits left, and ice cream. I really think it was a little part of Jeff's fault because he just walked back to the fruit place in costco and put it in the cart. I was like, dude that's a little too much. And I dislike it when Kuya Bryan is indecisive on things. Like when he looked at the fruits he kept asking, "Are you sure that's enough?" Then we end up spending too much time thinking, thus creating more problems as a result. Becuase in the end we had to throw them out, or give the rest to Ateh Eloisa. Sux. We only made about $90, but buying the stuff was around $60. What I was really mad about was that Tita Madeline kept telling us what to do, what's better. I mean sure most filipino families are like that, but when it comes to a day when it's the youth's day, we have to handle it our own. SERIOUSLY. You can't just order us around like that. But oh well, I just didn't want to bother her. She ended up not getting a smoothie because we ran out of mangoes ahhahah. I know that's cruel, but maybe it's karma you know? Next we went to Red Robbins, it was so funny, Ateh Mill got a happy birthday icecream sunday thing, it was her birthday like 2 weeks ago hahaah. So dude. like, my light is flickering right now. Weird. Anyways, Red Robbins was very fun, I have no other ways to describe it. There's was a little, "mmhhhhmmmm" going on in Red Robbins ;D! Hahha, it's fun talking about it. Then we hit it to the courts(= I played with the guys again. Found out there's this girl that's really awesome in basketball, she shot over Mark a few times, it was beautiful. She inspires me to work on my no ref skills. Like freals. She's good. It reminded me about the last time I played with the youth guys + DBC. Hahhah, great times. Came back to the pool, I wanted to swim after I was done playing, but we had to leave because it was 10pm. Grr. It was pretty fun. Didn't get to stay long just to hang out and talk with them. Grr. VIET(=! Buddy(=! Jeeeez, you gotta take me out one day. You finally got your license after talking to me about it all the time. + You graduated! D: That's gonna suck even more! Grrr. Anyways. After that, we hit it at Fowler and Starbucks. Ateh gave us an extra green tea frap! <3333. Mmhm. Fowler was cooool. Spun so fast around the play ground things tehehehe. Yeup, that's how my day went. THE BEST SO FAR. I think I lost my voice hahah

Jovey, out

Ex-changed.

Read this, this was for my ex:

the shoulder i cry on
the arms i fall upon
our warmth combined together
our love, lasting forever
the special hug, the special kiss
every glance of me, you wouldn't miss
the day you said "I love you",
you never meant it,
it seemed like i was never your fit
Its alright we can be friends,
but take our separate ways till the end
I forgave you, it was the right thing to do
but I couldn't help it, I still needed you

You decided to give me another chance
just one chance I can enhance
This time, all you did was say hi
not even a freaking kiss goodbye
or a kiss at night
Your sentence was never completed
Again, I've been defeated

No, you lost.
I've paid the price, but you never gave a cost.
It's close to a year,
You're actually leaving out of here
Although my heart will forever be yours,
you have no right to take advantage of me again,
imi
that's for sure.

Jovey, out

Plan, plan, plans.

Today, I went to Denny's for dinner, might go to a party later.

Later, for tomorrow:

Kuya JayJay is going to come to our church and give a message, or should I say Pastor JayJay. He's so young to be a pastor, reminds me of Kuya Bryan. Well, I'm really excited for Sunday because I get to go out and eat at Red Robbins with DBC and LBTB church youth (= Finally I'll have my chance to get to know some of them. We had so much clicks at the picnic we had, I wanted to break them ahhah. After Red Robbins, we're gonna hit it at Kuya Bryan's sister's place. Where there's a pool, and basketball courts. I enjoyed playing with the guys last time, but they didn't take me seriously )= just cause I was a girl hahah, they didn't want to hurt me. There's a lot that's going to happen tomorrow. + It's going to be youth sunday. We're selling smoothies for $3! It's a pretty big cup so no worries. The youth and the youth leaders like my fund raising ideas. We had a bake sale about 3 weeks ago, and mine sold the fastest. It was a brownie with vanilla bean ice cream on top, also for options, chocolate syrup drizzled over it with sprinkles (=. For our next fund raising on youth sunday, we're going to make crepes. Pretty simple right? Mmhm. That's basically my plan for that Sunday.

I'm going to finally start my pre-training before summer training for Cross Country. It's on July 6th, so I'm basically not ready. I couldn't start right after school started because, I have this infection on the bottom of my foot, but it's being healed and hopefully I can make it to practices and improve my distance and my stamina. I really want to PR on my time this year and hopefully bump us back to B league my senior year.

So here's how it'll go:
Monday- Run 30 min
Tuesday- Run 1 hr
Wednesday- Sprints/Workouts/Stretches
Thursday- Run 1 hr
Friday- Run 30 min

*Weekends are rest day, if I feel like it.

Jovey, out

confessions

BOLD EVERYTHING THAT YOU THINK APPLIES TO YOU.
my italicizes are maybes/sometimes

I miss somebody right now.
I dont watch TV these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I’ve tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I’m TOTALLY smart.
I’ve broken someone’s bones.
I’m paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I LOVE sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn’t survive without Caller ID.
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don’t hate anyone.
I’m a pretty good dancer.
I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I’ve rejected someone before.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
I’m not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush in the past.
I own the “South Park” movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
I am happy at this moment.
I’m obsessed with guys.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I’m proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald’s restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I want to go to college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can’t whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/I have owned a horse.
I still have every journal I’ve never written in.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can’t stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
I’m an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.

Jovey, out

Inspired. In need of your grace.

Jovey, out

Vegas baby

So lately, my parents planned to go to Vegas and what not, then they tried to change it to Tahoe. Wow, they never make up their minds or plan ahead. Well, I woke up to my mom yelling from outside of my door "Wake up! we're going to Las Vegas! Get ready! We're going to leave at noon! She woke me up at 9am. Ridiculous. I'm ready right now, and yet she's not. How impatient I will be in a few hours. It's ok, they planned, I'm just going along. Hopefully my dad will lend me his camera and take a few pics of this famous city. Other than vegas, I wanna talk about something else. There are a lot of planning to do for this summer. I''m going to have to plan a whole lot for Kasama with Leah. I also have to job hunt, read ap hw, and take my driving test next month, plus there's camp. mhmm. At vegas, I'm gonna plan out some things on the following week that's coming up.

So far, for this summer, I have guitar hero, and I've been playing for a while now haha. Also, I've been going out a lot to Amanda's place and hanging out with her. Graduations, honor nights. Parties. Mall. Driving with Jovill practically everywhere around San Jose. He still needs to buy me shoes and my parents need to buy me dress shoes/ heels. Swimming, hanging out with the youth. Sleepovers at Ivy's. Movies next wek (x Wowow. Well that's all I've done so far. I'm looking forward to vlogs and covers plus our uke jam sessions!

Also, since it's summer and most people don't have anything to do, I suggested them to make a blog on either or blogger vox tumblr. Just because I like reading them(= Yays for Tony! hahah I read your blog! Well, if any of you are reading this, I encourage you to keep on typing! It helps you keep up with your writings skills too haha if you thnk of it that way. Also, Stefan left us for good)= But he's coming back today to get his stuff. I wish I could stay home longer to visit him again.

Yeup! Well, I'm done with my blog(=

Jovey, out

Summer nights

Jovey, out

Summer is here

At first, it suxed because we had no camera to record how much fun we were having. Sunday June 14- Monday Jun15, I went over to my friend's house near Ahill. Along the way to her house, we stopped by this burrito place. My gosh, I was going to friggen spaz. Stupid beans. Luckily, orchata refined my stomach. Later, we settled at her house chilled for a bit, headed off to the pool. It was so coollldd. Guess what my fail dive was. I tried going through the floaty, but I got caught it in hahah, plus I jumped on it trying to go through it, but I forgot to put my arms up, so it was a BIG SLAP on my right arm ahahah. Later, we went to walmart bought HECKKAAA candy(: I didn't feel any sugar rush, but I was laughing my head off till I got tired. We watched 4 movies, played monopoly, ate candy. Then we played chubby bunny. Hahah, 5 is my farthest. Wowow. Played some games on the computer, went off to the jacuzzi, was about 3am. Slept around 6ish? yeup. Woke up, made pancakes, fixed the place, went to sleep again till Jovill came to pick me up.

Later, we visited Stefan. It was a nice day. It was a good thing he didn't move on that day we visited him. He liked our gigantic "we'll miss you" card. Thank goodness for last minute ideas hahaha. I gave him my inNout gift certificate since I couldn't get him calamari.

Jovey, out

Avoid dissension

this may apply to anyone, not pointing fingers, cause it points back on me, so please reflect on this with no hassle(=

Titus 3:10; Reject a divisive man after the first and second admonition

Breaking it down to my level of understanding:
Do not listen to those who are in strong disagreement. Also meaning, if you seriously know what you know, don't follow the words that come out of the mouths of dissension after they've repeated in several times.


Lately, many of these so called gossips have been going around. There's no particular topic. Generally, when gossips go around, I don't want to be involved. I mean, why bother when it's none of your business? We're just lurking for excitement. We may have hurt each other in ways that other people would take it offensively. We want help, so we let our dumb mouths tell the whole world without safety coming first. I'm going to need to watch what I say or listen to. There's proof needed. But, SOME CERTAIN FATHER DOES NOT REALIZE THAT.He's the president of dissension. The ruler of all rebellion. There are other fathers who are just like him, but there are times when someone is having a worse day than my bad day. So I like to keep in mind that, no matter what, my dad is my grudge i hold against. Everyday, it seems like we get along, but one thing he fears is showing anger towards me, in public. But, I don't want to follow his words and demands. Because I strongly believe that I know what I'm doing. There is a future for me, and that's the only thing I want to fulfill on my own. I noticed time is going by so fast. I need to make the best out things these last two days of school. Sophomore year wasn't surprising at all, but it was extraordinary.

Jovey, out