So what about the outside? What matters is inside.
Lately, I've been thinking about myself. I really don't want to live a frustrating life trying to strive for my disciplined needs. Really! I'd like to chill and eat some chicharon (: Every time I sign on blogger, I read my old blogs from 07-08. It made me wonder, "Why am I so jovial? So joyful? So joyous?" The only sad thing about my blogs is that, whenever I have a problem, it's always about my family, or someone I want to be with. I haven't really examined the BIGGER picture. Or is it the smaller pictures? The sketches, instead of the paintings? 5 years from now, I imagine myself working somewhere, being stressed, fingers tired from typing, with a messy tied up hair. Where will I be after high school? After all this weight is gone, this burden, will it just compile back when life is more advanced? When I enter this realm of maturity? It's a scary thought, I know. But, we need to keep going. Stepping off the scale, and understanding what's more important. Stepping off the scale when you know that you can accomplish possible things. Such as, surviving, finding something to eat, loving someone. If you ask me, I'm not ready. I scale from 90-110. Meaning, it's not enough. There are things that I need to feed on as I grow throughout my days, throughout the week, month, LIFE. Often, I ask myself, why am I not gaining?! Gaining knowledge, sense, awareness, purity? I'm taking them all in, but metaphorically, I'm just using it to the best of my accountability only when I need it. I'm burning it off, when it should stay inside of me, inside my brain, inside the deepest warmth of my beating heart. I needed to take care of my body. If I just plainly take whatever I can eat, it wouldn't be the right way to consume it. To be able to use it. So be careful of what you eat ;D LOL, made no sense (the last part hahahah)
Weird implication of a human body system huh?
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Just what I needed for my biology project, lmao ;D
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