Let's clarify a few things

CONFUSION. It's just another illusion
I can say whatever I want to say,
there's no price to pay
But in my eyes, I never realized,
that all I did was fantasize
This isn't the truth that lies inside me,
It was all a joke, a joke that made me be,
be the person I am now,
the person that I tried to let go of
the stupid nonsense and the dumbass stuff
I've never told myself that enough was enough
enough until the point where I've reached my limits
But, I couldn't do it,
I couldn't do this this stupid ass shit
Now I'm lost, turning here and there,
getting to nowhere
Destination to procrastination is what it is
Lying and defying my own parents to take me to this whole new transformation
The transformation that changes my life
MY LIFE.
My life is hopeless, and without hesitation,
it's still an obligation.

So basically, I'm just screwed. I don't even know what to do or how to react to the things that my parent's say or what other people say in school. These distractions from school take me away and pulls me into a whole different world where I can be some one else and not care that my parent's are sitting at home waiting for me. Waiting for me to jump back in and be a good girl who does whatever she can to satisfy her parents. But whatever, I just want to leave all this behind. Seriously. I need a change.





Giving up is an option