April 5, 2008 12:10pm

the shoulder i cry on
the arms i fall upon
our warmth combined together
our love, lasting forever
the special hug, the special kiss
every glance of me, you wouldn't miss
the day you said "I love you",
you never meant it,
it seemed like i was never your fit
Its alright we can be friends,
but take our separate ways till the end
I forgave you, it was the right thing to do
but I couldn't help it, I still needed you

You decided to give me another chance
just one chance I can enhance
This time, all you did was say hi
not even a freaking kiss goodbye
or a kiss at night
Your sentence was never completed
Again, I've been defeated

No, you lost.
I've paid the price, but you never gave a cost.
It's close to a year,
You're actually leaving out of here
Although my heart will forever be yours,
your heat has no right in my heart to tour.




--- I remember this...
Jan 18, 2008
Let me tell you what I honestly think of you. You’re too easily drawn into the social life, as of right now. You’re easily influenced by the people surrounded you. You want what they have so that they can accept you as a friend. You’re just another follower in the group. I know you are great academically, but the way you act towards me and everyone else is just horrible. The way you place yourself in the world, it’s like you want to be the center of atention, and you don’t want anybody else to take some of that pride of yours.



---I remember those days when I would just give up and empty all my hopes.


---No clue.
July 8, 2008
Through all those silly likes and not serious relationships, I realize I'm not up for the challenge. The hardest, well third most hardest challenge, to me, that I have risked so many times. L o v e. I didn't really know what love was, if a wise man were to examine my love life and issues, he would say, thi is not love, this is nonsense. To me, I truly think it's nonsense. Love right now, I really don't know. "LOVE" in my past, its all a big painting of scribbles. Scribbles marked with permanent markers and never failing to be erased. I can't even describe the stupid things I've done.


---I'm such a jerk!