Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Guiding own necessities
Explain the pain that I gain
Is it worse to curse than to steal from your mother's purse
or is it better to change your lifestyle,
then be in denial?
I'm stuck in a fake life that I take and create
If assuming that I can't improve, what is there to approve?
I'm going up and down, round and round and I listen to the sounds
the sounds of orders, blocked by these borders as I get older
"you can't do this or that" just because I lack
lack to accept the fact that,
I'm too young
Quizes, tests
A's and F's
Theywant A's, through my days
there was nothing to do but gaze
Dream of dreams that I've never seen
I'm sick of their demands, being hit by their hands
But I stand alone, I dig deep down to the bone
keeping my words from all the things I've heard
Hands down, inside imprints a frown wearing a crown saying,
"Failure"
I figured that not being perfect isn't so bad but it's something we all wish we had
Across from me lays my life, tensions become tight
Despite what might be a fight, my lesson is learned
And as I yearn for my future concerns, you should take your turn
No matter how much it hurts to be caught up in their dirt
Wait until you move out because there's nothing to regret but doubt
Don't complain and shout
because you'll get older
and one day you'll dust them off your shoulder
Is it worse to curse than to steal from your mother's purse
or is it better to change your lifestyle,
then be in denial?
I'm stuck in a fake life that I take and create
If assuming that I can't improve, what is there to approve?
I'm going up and down, round and round and I listen to the sounds
the sounds of orders, blocked by these borders as I get older
"you can't do this or that" just because I lack
lack to accept the fact that,
I'm too young
Quizes, tests
A's and F's
Theywant A's, through my days
there was nothing to do but gaze
Dream of dreams that I've never seen
I'm sick of their demands, being hit by their hands
But I stand alone, I dig deep down to the bone
keeping my words from all the things I've heard
Hands down, inside imprints a frown wearing a crown saying,
"Failure"
I figured that not being perfect isn't so bad but it's something we all wish we had
Across from me lays my life, tensions become tight
Despite what might be a fight, my lesson is learned
And as I yearn for my future concerns, you should take your turn
No matter how much it hurts to be caught up in their dirt
Wait until you move out because there's nothing to regret but doubt
Don't complain and shout
because you'll get older
and one day you'll dust them off your shoulder
Worry does not take the pain out of tomorrow; it merely takes the joy out of today.
That quote is deep. Don't procrastinate you guys! Please! Haha, no matter how lazy you are the days before, just pretend that the next day is when the assignment is due, don't waste time(x I regret doing that, and eventually I'm going to do it again.
I've been reading quotes, and one quote that I made up today as my life was walking beside me was:
You share life through the words you speak
I hung out with Paulina, I miss her even though we see each other at school and she comes by my locker. I miss all my friends. I can see that we can be friends again, but the things I do are time consuming. Am I being a little selfish? Enjoying myself without the people I care about the most? Is this expediency catching onto me? Or am I just being foolish for not giving my time? I don't know. Lately, I haven't been lazy or anything. But if we weren't conquered by time, then life would be endless, no standards, nothing. This is forcing me to learn how much I've turned my back on so many people. It's better enough for me to not even care, but it draws me away from them than ever. Sometimes, I can't handle this. Bullshit, that's all. This is like, dung, to me. I just want nothing, let me not have what I wait for, let me not have the time. Rebel against this world. What am I saying. Life should be worth living, because we only have ONE life. That's it. She is my problem, and I wish that I could already move out of my house, I wouldn't give a damn if I left my school. UGH, I'm gonna shower and cool down.
*On Sunday, my left eye kept twitching. Hoping for the disaster to come by and leave a stab on my back, because I feel like I've been waiting so long to deserve it
I've been reading quotes, and one quote that I made up today as my life was walking beside me was:
You share life through the words you speak
I hung out with Paulina, I miss her even though we see each other at school and she comes by my locker. I miss all my friends. I can see that we can be friends again, but the things I do are time consuming. Am I being a little selfish? Enjoying myself without the people I care about the most? Is this expediency catching onto me? Or am I just being foolish for not giving my time? I don't know. Lately, I haven't been lazy or anything. But if we weren't conquered by time, then life would be endless, no standards, nothing. This is forcing me to learn how much I've turned my back on so many people. It's better enough for me to not even care, but it draws me away from them than ever. Sometimes, I can't handle this. Bullshit, that's all. This is like, dung, to me. I just want nothing, let me not have what I wait for, let me not have the time. Rebel against this world. What am I saying. Life should be worth living, because we only have ONE life. That's it. She is my problem, and I wish that I could already move out of my house, I wouldn't give a damn if I left my school. UGH, I'm gonna shower and cool down.
*On Sunday, my left eye kept twitching. Hoping for the disaster to come by and leave a stab on my back, because I feel like I've been waiting so long to deserve it
Monday, April 20, 2009
happy birthday chris le!
yeeup that's my new hair cut too. Two tails? I think it's hot. Hahah FREAKING JEFFREY CUT HIS MOHAWK AND TAIL. Jerk made me cut mine for no reason! Jk.
I planned to get the style of Yuna from FFX2 it was ok when I tried spiking it, but the sides, they're a bit long so in the summer I'll try to make it shorter.
for those of you who just found out I got a hair cut today, well, if it's not appealing, deal with it. Don't worry I'm still the same Jovey(x
Oh boy. I felt bad for not giving him a gift. Hmm. Well, I'll return the favor some day. A few people noticed my hair cut. THAT'S A GOOD THING. I don't want the whole world to know yet. School was boring, after school was pretty fun. Played the piano with Leah in Dang's room. Basically hung out with Ferdy Leo and Bruce. Bruce is a cool guy(=! And I'm glad I'm friends with him because I don't know what it is, but I look up to him in a way. He made things possible that he never would have expected it to result like it. I remember during the summer he always ran in his big jacket in the hot sun. And one thing he told me, "I don't know, I've just gotten addicted to it." Seeing someone like him makes me feel unnatural. Like, hey he's doing something productive. We're all lazy beings and we wish upon what we can be in life, but I mean, JUST DO IT. I learned that in church ahha, cause Pastor Sam was trying to relate Nike to a passage in the Bible (x I like his messages because it's so traditional for a filipino to relate things to each other. Well, that was basically all I did at school, get to know Bruce a little more and watch little Boeger kids trying to learn how to break dance from Michael Vo. That's another weird thing, these friends or just guys, not many people like to explore them. NOT LIKE THAT, but hey there are probably other secrets they hide behind their backs. I didn't know Michael Vo can break dance, it's like some underground society they live in. Hahah, but hey through the years, maybe life would be more interesting if people became more appealing and express their true talents and themselves. Ending with this, I walked with Ferdy and elvis on the way home. FunFunFUN.
FIN(=
I planned to get the style of Yuna from FFX2 it was ok when I tried spiking it, but the sides, they're a bit long so in the summer I'll try to make it shorter.
for those of you who just found out I got a hair cut today, well, if it's not appealing, deal with it. Don't worry I'm still the same Jovey(x
Oh boy. I felt bad for not giving him a gift. Hmm. Well, I'll return the favor some day. A few people noticed my hair cut. THAT'S A GOOD THING. I don't want the whole world to know yet. School was boring, after school was pretty fun. Played the piano with Leah in Dang's room. Basically hung out with Ferdy Leo and Bruce. Bruce is a cool guy(=! And I'm glad I'm friends with him because I don't know what it is, but I look up to him in a way. He made things possible that he never would have expected it to result like it. I remember during the summer he always ran in his big jacket in the hot sun. And one thing he told me, "I don't know, I've just gotten addicted to it." Seeing someone like him makes me feel unnatural. Like, hey he's doing something productive. We're all lazy beings and we wish upon what we can be in life, but I mean, JUST DO IT. I learned that in church ahha, cause Pastor Sam was trying to relate Nike to a passage in the Bible (x I like his messages because it's so traditional for a filipino to relate things to each other. Well, that was basically all I did at school, get to know Bruce a little more and watch little Boeger kids trying to learn how to break dance from Michael Vo. That's another weird thing, these friends or just guys, not many people like to explore them. NOT LIKE THAT, but hey there are probably other secrets they hide behind their backs. I didn't know Michael Vo can break dance, it's like some underground society they live in. Hahah, but hey through the years, maybe life would be more interesting if people became more appealing and express their true talents and themselves. Ending with this, I walked with Ferdy and elvis on the way home. FunFunFUN.
FIN(=
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