Looking forward to a lot of things these upcoming months

So Friday is a busy day, but I can only choose one thing to do. Basically, on Friday there's a kasama performance for kuya marcus at a hotel at 6pm, but there's youth hour on Friday, and I was going to host the Show and Tell idea. I feel like I'm letting too many things down just for one personal errand. So on Friday, I decided to perform Sakuting with Kasama. A few things that I'm going to focus on are, CAHSEE, Homecoming decorations, and basketball games. It's really hard to do so many things you enjoy doing when they're on the same plan dates. I hope that I can manage most things and get around them. To make up for youth hour on Friday, I'm going to get a head start on the T-shirt design and the poster ideas on the theme "Pressing On" Put your cross up. So, For the Tshirt design, I'm hoping to put an image of Jesus carrying a cross and put in a verse of what it means. Other than the Church stuff, I'm learning I'm yours by the Script with Ivy. Successfully, I'm hoping on it. Also, I need to make up a lot of things for English, I have a C in it. And Precal, my grade is going lower because of the SAT practice quizes. Tomorrow is another day for precal, the quiz. I'm not going to take the chance of using my Free C, because I'm going to have a full hour working on the quiz so, by the time I skim through the quiz and answer the ones that seem a whole lot easier than the others, I'll have time to go back to the harder ones and work on them.

Yes, I don't have to bring a lot of things, so tomorrow is only 3rd, 5th, and 7th. History, math, and PE. The main ones. Way to ruin my Friday! 2nd, 4th and 6th. Ending with Pham. Grr. But it's alright. I just need to get things straight over the weekend. I'm getting sleepy. So, I have a game tomorrow, VS Branham, I'm really full from the Movie night @ MP for the Track team. Hancock, I haven't watched it. I barely watched some, and I feel like an idiot wasting all my money like that ]:

Long time!

Long time no see! Nothing big has happened yet.



Basically my week was great! In this current blog, I'm only going to say this once, "Some things aren't meant to be said" So saying that, I won't type out what I think (as of this moment) All I'm going to say is that, I've got to spend more than enough time with Ivy. When the time's gone, I'll try to maintain our touch. I want to be able to stick with her the way she stuck with me throughout all our years since kindergarten. So I'll try to do my best and return the past favors and make them visible. Everything else, I'm really glad the way life is going. I know I have ups and downs, but they're the reason why I'm strong and weak.

Love life? I'm loving everyone. Most people respect me, and I'm not ashamed of showing my love to everyone. Boys? Some are just way out of my league. Lol. But I don't think I'll take a step forward. I'm a little scared with my trust issues. I think it's tough for me to keep up with a relationship. Seriously. Haha. But it's going pretty well, I just don't know if I'm liking him for the right reasons.


WCO was fun! I missed most of the people there. I really wanted to see Kevin. The only people I saw there, were GUYSSS. Wow. Saw him too. I'm sorry, but I have to confess, Andrew's hottt. Lolol. Well, that's coo, that's all. i'm done!

Oh, and basketball? GEEETTT SOMEEE.





Bet you thought I was gonna type a lot huh?

January 8 Basketball

_______VS. Leland High School This was the day I've literally lost my temper. I let my anger go like crazy. Why has this happened? I wanted to impress them. The crowd. I didn't want to make a mistake a make a fool out of myself. Through that, I wanted to seem like nothing can stop me. Including, I was too prideful. I've lost faith in God, I lost faith in the team. I've taken charge of my own body and I've put myself out there like an idiot. There were some good plays and horrible plays that embarrassed me like crazy. But this wasn't about me, it was for the team. Because when one person is not working, or if one person takes personal charge, it effects the team, it effects the game. At the beginning at most games I would pray for good outcomes. Instead, I've received a lesson to learn and make it the center of my attention. I went out of the 4th period of the basketball game, I made a Technical foul. I was dribbling the ball when a girl in front of me comes up and just takes the ball away from me. I held the ball tight as if a mother would never let go of her baby. Soon we fell to the ground, and I felt a BIG kick in the back! People told me a girl slid and kicked me and also trying to get the ball away from me. So, After the whistle was blown, both the players let go of the ball, and my hand slips out causing me to throw it at the coach because I was pissed off that they still wouldn't let go after the whistle was blown. So I was called for a Technical. Most people loved it, thought it was awesome, but I was just totally embarrassed. I was also embarrassed for the fact that I couldn't bring the team back up with points, after scoring 6 points in a row catching up to the other team; we were down by 3 points. As a result, the score was 40 something to 20 something. So I was a little disappointed in myself. But alls wells that ends well. I've learned my lesson to calm down and take control of the ball and myself. So I won't be playing much in the next game, but hopefully I can stay calm.

There were a lot of things that I learned

_______before 2009.During my time in Tsunami, there was this session held. The topic was called Life 4 Christ. It was my first session to go with Ateh Bea and Jamie. I've learned that, it's easy following the path to God and being able to walk the narrow road. We may stumble through so many problems and fear what we fear. Fear of falling, fear of loneliness, whatever we're scared of. So The teacher's name was Donna. She placed a cup of clear water before us. She told us, that that represents us, people, you. But when we sin and do wrong things that prevents us from following God. So in her hand, she brings out the exact cup with exact amount of liquid inside it. But in this cup there was coffee. She slowly poured it in the water a few times. She told us as she constantly pours it, "This is sex" She pours, "This is drugs" She pours it. Again and again. When the cup was fully black and dark as coffee, she lifted it up and said "This is what Sin does, this is what Satan is doing. You need to know this." So as dark as coffee and the strong smell from it, it represents Satan working within us. So she takes a cup of water and pours it again in the coffee cup. (FYI, the cup is clear so that everyone can see.) She asks us, "Does this look clear to you?" And of course it doesn't. She adds more and more cups of water into it. The cup begins to look a little brown and clear. She had no more cups of water. And she tells us, that this is what we do when God takes over our lives. The cup is yellow and barely clear. She had no more cups of water, so a little boy volunteered to give his water bottle to her. She takes the water bottle and pours all of it down. The cup is clear, but you can see a little yellow in it. She stops. "You see, when we do not sin, we become pure, we've renewed our heart and made this clear. God's plan is ready." That really touched me you know. Knowing that it takes so much water to make the cup of coffee clear again. It takes more than enough to become cleansed. It's all about being pure. Having a pure heart. It take so much time to fix our mistakes and feel like we are free. She said, "But there'll be a day when you may sin again. And soon, you'll become a cup of coffee taking more time to become clear. You want to be pure. You're way will be God." So. Yeeeup. Lol