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Weird

Have you ever had a dream where you just don't fit in, but the storyline does? I'm not making any judgment or anything, but today was the first time I ever woke up crying. Yes, crying. It's really strange. My eyes kind of hurt right now too. Ohk, so I set my alarm to 8:30am because I don't want be used to waking up at 10am or anything. I woke up, today, at that time, but I was making myself enjoy my rest since I rarely sleep in. My dreams are short, but when I wake up it's like 3-4 hours, and I wonder how that's possible.. Anyways, here it goes:


I'm in a van of 6 pople, my brother Nathaniel, and tall african guy, my mom(driving) a little african girl, and a little filipino girl and myself. I don't know their names, I don't know their faces. But I think I was in Europe or Asia. We're driving around this ghetto neighborhood. The streets were covered with trash, and the walls were all tagged. Far on the other side is a beautiful place filled with golden houses and golden streets. Us, where are we? Of course we're in the streets. Empty bottles have been thrown at us by random men that wore nothing but a covering for their private area, who stood by garbage cans that lit on fire. The little filipino girl would always scream and yell. The tall man in the back would cover his ears, and sway his body back and forth. The little african girl would keep quiet and hold her legs close to her face. Nathaniel, he's just sitting as if it's a regular car ride. My mom, is on the right side. So she's driving on the right side of the car. Me? I'm just staring at all these helpless people, in the car, outside the car. And how I wish we could go to that place filled with gold and happiness. The tall man starts screaming, overlapping the volume of the little filipino girl's voice. She then stays quiet as a rat. The tall man is yelling, "Where are we??! Why am I heree?! What's happening??! I've been sitting here all day!" Everyone continued to look forward, wherever my mom was driving. I just stare at him as he continues to take over everyone's freedom of speech. Greatly, he starts to tell us a story about himself and his family. He seems to calm down at the moment. ".. But if my family is not near me, and I'm in this car with these people, why should I waste my time saving myself?! Let me out! MOVE!"

At this point, (now that I'm awake) I think I'm in a world of lonliness and hoplessness.

For this matter, this man could not calm down. My mom locked the doors, literally. The doors were locked with chains and everything, we couldn't go out, no way will my mom let us. This time, the tall man starts hyperventalating. Saying he'll never survive saying he'll give up on life, wishing he'd be outside with the lonely men out side of the car. Then, I finally said, "Wait. Look, there's a possibility your parents will be in that golden place. Just be patient! I know how hard it is to know if you're parents or family is still alive, because see here, my mom is the only one I have, and my grandma? We don't know yet until we get there. I want you to know that, there's still a chance, because if you give up now, and you assume your mom and grandma are not there or here, WHO ARE YOU GOING TO TURN TO? I hope it's not going to be your mom, or grandma, or a talking squirrel. You've got to look up, fold your hands and pray to God."

I was like desperately crying while I said this to him

His face showed that he was attentive and his mind was clear of disaster. And that's when I woke up crying.


How interesting.

Camp is right around the corner

RED TEAM! Winner of GFFC camp`08

Summery weeks

2 nights ago, I just came back from the church carwash. We didn't make as much as last time. Actually we made less than $100. The other carwash was around$300. See the difference? Well, we did our best plus we only did it for 4 hours. Last time was pretty long. Ivy and Rae came along to our house and we pretty much chilled. I got to finish some parts of my wall (painting). I have random drawings on my wall. My dad just stared at it for 10 minutes then walked away. Well, it's my design. Although I may not like it, haha, I'm still proud of my art work. Rae chilled in my room playing games on the laptop. She's still a little kid. Had church youth bible study after service. Kuya Wes gave an example and it was basically like regardless of how you look go on and knock on the door of your neighboor's burning house. Then Kuya Wayne was like, "What if you were naked?" All we thought was what if haha, it took a while for Kuya Wayne to settle his humor. Went straight home. Chilled, then went to walmart to buy some shorts. Unfortunately I don't know if I'd like to use them for camp. But I'll bring it anyways. I still need to go shopping haha. That's all for today, I'm going to go read my book that I have to finish by this week. then when I come back, Jovill will help me with the narrative of fredrick douglas and I'm going to have to annotate and read that for a week in august. Then the next two weeks, will be catfish and mandala,; also simulation on August 3rd.

What a real mission this was-

Mission Peak. Located on Mission, midpoint of Milpitas and Fremont. Woke up this morning around 6am to get ready. Headed over to the place, and saw: Maureen, Les, Janine, JR, Rachel, Don, Mimi, Troung, and I came with Steph, and Dino. We started. We absolutely had about 9 stops. But there were 4 rest stops, then the top of the hill. We were at the rockiest path before reaching the top. Actually there were a lot of them. AND HILLS so high up, once you see a ending at the top, there's just more to go. That happened like 6 times. I always assume hhaha. Our stops aren't like 20 minutes, it's not even half. More like 4 minutes. We kep going and going and going. How far ? How long? Well, it was almost 2 hours when we got to the top. We can see long strips of clouds floating over the peak. Crazyy. My thighs, ankles, buttox, feet, arms, everything was aching. I finished both of my only water bottles once we got to the top. We came by a cow, and then a heard of cows, then a field of cow poop. Yuck. Got sweaty, Dino was flooding, everyone else was hot. What we all noticed was that, the guys were complaining so much, but the girls werent hahah. Interesting. We barely passed anyone. We probably passed them, but tat the rest stop, they would go past us! Hahah, it was interesting how old people can hike for a long period of time without stopping. I was beat! Man, that was the longest straveling ever this week! I couldn't even run it, it was too hard, way too many hills. We got all the way to the top, the breeze was fantastic, loved the air. It was good for 20 min, but we had to get back down before it gets hotter during the day. Going down was faster, but killed my feet ! My toes hurted, and my ankle)= Hopefully I didn't sprain it or anything. I slipped like 3 times, but I didn't tumble. GOING DOWN THAT ROCKY STEEP PATH? Oh I could not pass it over. I had to get down that way, there was no other option. Going back down was nothing man, 30 minutes I think. I would love to go back again, maybe in 3 weeks haahha, I need to heal lol. I enjoyed it. Some Jovey & some LBFC youth time. Got back down, can't breifly explain what happened, so tired T.T But, Kuya Dino Steph and JR kept throwing rocks at the squirrels and birds. It was funny, but I had to watch my step. After, we went to a hawaiian place to eat. Good stuff, Maureen gave me food)= I didn't want any but she ended up ripping her box and putting food on it for me. Woo, I had raspberry iced tea. REFRESHING! Almost slept in the car on the way home. Came home, saw Nathaniel trying to parallel park. Blah I was tired. Went in my room, took a shower. Came out with my dad HELLA SCREAMING AT ME when he saw a mail/ letter that said i had a $125 fine for cross country uniform. I told him I'll talk to my coach cause I knew I turned it in. Then he goes on twisting his words saying I better not have lost it. & I already pointed out the main points. He just wants to win the argument. What a pain in the ass. He's been my pain in the ass. Won't leave me alone with these little misconceptions. Jeez. So, I'm kind of sleepy. Gonna sleep, wake up read/annotate then head out to the store. FYL.

FUNNY yet scary.

I must say today was a fun day. I went over to MP to get my work permit. Got it like nothing man. So I walked out of the office and then sat at the front waiting for Denny Bill to come pick me up. As I was waiting, I was thinking about Stefan, and his driving test he's going to take. Hopefully he passed. Otherwise he should've ran over my house today. Hahha. Denny Bill picked me up at the front and we were going to head to Starbucks, but instead we went the opposite way of where we were going and headed to Fruity Tutti. It's pretty good. At least they had more varieties, unlike the one I went to in Sacramento. Well, I wasn't in a chocolatey mood, so I picked out a berry trio yogurt, and vanilla, and just put random fruity stuff on it, including asian jelly and cheesecake bites. It was delicious! 4 bucks worth it! Well, that's if you're enjoying it with someone else haha. We took pictures, and Denny Bill finally found out he had a timer on his camera phone. WOWOW. Hahah. Suddenly, I finished all the yogurt before him. Hah, too slow. Sikeee. This boy parks all weird, but it's all good. IT WAS HOT ! REALLY HOT! Man.. Anyways, we thought of going to Fowler park to check out the water show thing. TOO BAD it was only on from 10am-1pm and the next one was at 3pm. SO after all that time driving around and finding the park, I decided to head for the sprinklers, but it was sad because the guy was working it, and he turned it off as soon as we got there haah. I drove Denny Bill's car. AHAH<3 The accelerator was sensitive! It was funny because I stopped driving it near that small plaza. We headed down on Aborn. SCARIEST TIME OF MY LIFE. Dennybill waits for the car in front him to move since it tried to merge into the left turn lane. As soon as it gets through, I tell him, "You should've passed that---" O.O A big truck cuts Dennybill. HOOLLYYYY--- Yea. He said, "See, if you weren't here, I would've gotten into an accident. I WAS RIGHT ABOUT CUTTING THE GUY WHO WAS TRYING TO MAKE A LEFT! Jeez. But thank God we didn't crash. Cause then, I would've been in soooo much trouble. I punched him after that. Hah. But it's all good. We went to Jamba Juice, got a drink, Saw Joel, and Jeanelle. Interesting. Then headed home. Yeap, it was fun except the fact that it was burning hot! Funny DennyBill, funny. Back home, I painted my room peach. for like 3 hours. Then headed to MP, for weightlifting. It felt good to lift weight today, but it seemed like a hard day. Maybe because it was hot. I'm gonna bring extra clothes if we're gonna swim after! Hahah. Came back home, thinking of doing homecoming tomorrow. Uhm just got informed that there's hiking tomorrow. I'm sooo tired. After this, I'm sleeping. Well, Mission Peak! Yay. Hahah. uhm, I IMed AMANDA :D! <3 I miss talking to her mann. I haven't had a girly girly talk in a while. Hmm. I'm craving for more yogurt and Crossbody hobo bags. Brown leather ;p


Yay. I need to turn in my apps, get$$$$ and buy some clothes.
I've been making craft
Paper cranes, crocheted beret/scarves, and pouches for coins/ phones! Interesting.


MUST READ O.O

BWAH. hah.

Gots a new steez.

Vnecks, cardigans, opentoe flats, crossbody bags.
Winter- Blazers/overcoats with hoodie or leather jacket hah. I found a place to buy them; pumahighs
VVVVVVV


Mom finally took me out to go shopping with her, bought 5 V-necks. So now I have like, 13. But I know I'm gonna want more. So, when I go shopping for camp, I'm gonna buy like 10 more. I know I was looking forward to go all baller and just chill, but hey I need to pick one style. Maybe on lazy days hah. Gonna head over to MP on Monday/ Tuesday to ask for a working permit & probably visit Mr. Williams. Hah, summer school, poor kids. But yeah, I'll probably hit it up this week. I contacted Martin on myspace, but I don't think that's the best way to reach him like that. He loves to answer his phone though! Well, we'll see. As for lockers & stuff I need for school, I'm letting them pay for it. Like seriously, I will have my own money, but I'm not going to take advantage of it for my needs, it's set upon my wants.

I'm going to have the chance to paint my room & get some new things hehe. So what color do yo usuggest? Not green! The living room is green already. I was thinking lavender or peach

All in all,

"Refined into an elegant shape
Grown into a figure of glowing sparks surrounding
Having an ample manner in one's great obedience and respect

Bring me a better vase once you can learn to love her."


-Anonymous
^^^WOWOWOW. *tear. hahah


No title
You cause me to become a ripple effect,
viewing me in different aspects
But you can only see what scars have been left

I'm broken,
but break me even more
Because, look at me, I'm already torn
Because this is Your plan, this is how I was born


My feet are set upon the sandy beach
I beseech you
be in my reach

I'm following your footsteps,
lead me into the path you take me
Free me
take hold of me completely.


The waves are crashing from the side
Take away the things I idolized
The pain I cried


Hate, Jealousy, Shame, Sadness, Lonliness
they're after my heart
You should have given me a head start
Please, tear me apart


I'm craving for Your affirmation
Yourdecleration
without ANY hesitation
I have no ambition
for rejection


Abide with me.
Please stay,
Because I'm praying,
that you'll never leave me
And once I'm healed by your hands
Take me away.

Why peaches?

prologue: ^^^^^^
so there's this girl (it's ALWAYS about a girl =) )
who has this boyfriend, but he doesn't treat her the way she deserves to be treated. And the only person witnessing this fiasco is her best friend...a male best friend. he's pretty cool, not that bad looking, doesn't smell bad, and can sing =) . the best friend and the girl get along like...peanut butter and jelly. whilst her and her boyfriend go together like...soda and milk (dont try it..trust me. lol)

so after realization, best friend FINALLY decides to call her and tell her how he inevitably feels.

so he picks up the phone...
dials her cell number..
hears a ring....
she hears that buzzing sound when you put your phone next to a radio or something (eh..eh..ehhhhhh!!!) haha. ok i'm going off topic.

but anyways.
she picks up the phone...
then the song begins....
enjoy.




"You think my swimming's
a stupid joke
but your always there
to keep me a float"

Oh Joy!

CLEANED MY ROOM(=

Yep! I feel great about it. I have all my books in a neat order, my stupid annoying dolls are now locked in a small cage box hehe, my jeans are in one place my old clothes are set out for my mom to take, my shoes are in a specific order from casual to slippers, my pencils, pens, colored pencils, markers, sharpies, gel pens all in it's own box, my personal things that my mom always try to hunt for are in a secret place hehe. Yeup! Plus I have 5 binders set for school already. But I need a new backpack)= Guess what? I found so many change under my mattress and around my room so I was luck to obtain more than $4 in coins ahhah.

Today I woke up, had breakfast, fix my room.
Now, I'm going to run for an hour, shower, read my books, then go to youth hour.

This is my daily plan if you'd like to read, but I just wanted to type this out for a reminder.

Sundays:
-Grocery shopping (gotta stay healthy!)

Mondays:
-Read, read, journal entry, annotate after done reading the book
-Cross Country 5-7

Tuesdays:
-Read, read, journal entry, annotate after done reading the book
-Girl's ministry*
-Cross country weight lifting

Wednesdays:
-Read, read, journal entry, annotate after done reading the book
-FYC summer program (up until 4:30pm)
-Cross country running

Thursdays:
-Read, read, journal entry, annotate after done reading the book
-Cross country weight training

Fridays:
-Read, read, journal entry, annotate after done reading the book
-FYC summer program
-Youth hour

Saturdays:
-Try to get my mom shopping with me.
JEEEEZ it's been over a year since I haven't shopped.
I know, I need new clothes yuck!

I can't even last a week without blogger

I like blogger. I need more of my friend's to follow me. Eh, too lazy to tell them about it. I'd rather give them diMtriJ blog. Well, here's my Vlog #2 just because, I only had about 6hrs of sleep and I feel like snoozing in a bit. Enjoy!




Plans:
-Eat healthy
-Exercise
-Read
-Girl's ministry
-Weightroom
-Read

My foundation

It's been a while. But I'm going to have to get used to it. Today was tiring. It was weight lift day. It's hard teaching the people who don't know it. I really need to clarify things out. Cause all I've been telling them was, Ohk do this and that. I need to explain what you can benefit from it and what not. As for lifting, I can't believe I bumped down from 45-35 lbs on the backsquat. I'm going to work my way through it then. It felt good to lift, to do cleans, snatches, and back squats and seeing everyone again! It was pretty cool today. I wasn't expecting LA degree. Hahah. I'm going to plan to run in the morning and everyday until the practices gradually become difficult. There was ONE new kid, from boogermiddle school. (Boeger) he reminds me of Sean. & hey, I'm not the only asian now. hahah. Hmm. I've been messing around with the Guitar Hero mic. I can use it on the laptop now. Sounds clear. Hahah. I ate a poppy seed muffin today and drank SunnyD. yay! hahah. I need to shower later, I feel nastaayyy.

This year is going to be super-awesome-heartwarming-mentally&physically-amazingly-painful.

Today was pretty chill

It was around 11:30am, and I can hear my mom walking back and forth in and out of her room. She constantly did that for about 30 minutes. I'm guessing she was in a rush. Don't you hate it how your walls aren't thick enough to shut the noises outside your room? Well, I guess some houses are built differently for a reason. I stood up opened the door, and I can smell the delicious Filipino meal that was set for me in the kitchen, but before I could even take a step out of my room, my mom abruptly confronts me and demands me to finish the laundry that was to be done by the end of the day. I replied with a sigh as she continued to quickly grab her things and leave. Signed on tumblr, signed on twitter, and Aim. I didn't feel like wasting time on myspace. I actually did all of the laundry, which is truly amazing and unusual of me. Well, at least that's what I think. Ate breakfast, then took a nice cool shower. Matthew called around 1 and so, I got reading by 1:30, drove to EV, picked up Matthew and Ferdie. Went to In N out, saw some interesting people. Smelled the delicious scent of In N Out. You know what was hecka shady? I ordered a number 1 for Matthew, but when we got to our house there were no fries. Sux. Dropped of Ferdie then hit at my house. Matthew and I pretty much myspaced and talked in my room, and made a video(: He's being a lazy butt sleeping on my bed. But it's coo. Did some funny stuff, I guess they were funny hahahha. Got ready for XC practice, went to Matt's grandma's place, dropped him off, then walked to Daisy's house on time. Headed over to MP track and reunited with some of the members. I was actually surprised to see Justine there, though she wasn't there for cross country, but she was there for Polevault. Oh wells)= Anywho, met up with everyone, Adan, Lalo, Violeta, Sonia, Josh. I feel like, I'm the only Asian in the group, but Robert kind of counts, cause he's half filipino. Hahah her mom is adorable(= Well, we ran to Cunningham, Daisy had a hell of a cramp, she kinda threw up. Yea, some girls have their own problems that they've got to take care of. Uhm. So we just chilled at a table talking about cross country stuff then some random things like 1000 ways to die. Which was pretty interesting at least. Ran back, actually, I walked with Sonia and Adan. And we just talked and talked. Hahah, I'm glad Sonia came out and joined the training. Well, we got back, stayed at the track for a while. Talked to Guian for like a minute cause he had to help fix the stuff for polevault. Then went home with Manuel Sonia and Daisy. Cross country was pretty fun. I haven't ran in a while and I look forward to this year. I over heard Mitch and them saying who's captain of the girl's group. And they said my name ! Hahah, but sure I'm down for anything. I also really want to improve in running, because we're in C league which pretty sucks. So I'm going to work my way up. But it's going to be hard, because I have FYC program on tues and wednesdays and tuesday activites and the church's girl's ministry and so many other programs. I'm going to plan that out later when I have the time. APUSH mannn, it's pushing me over the edge already. I've annotated like 10 pages already. But I'm going to change my plans, I'm gonna read the book first then annotate. Cause it'll be easier to understand the story or narrative that way. Good luckss to mee. Hahah. Hmm. VayK is going great! Went to Vegas, Lake port, Sactown, might go to the bay this week. I'm an Auntie now(: hahha. I'll post up pictures from Sactown later, once I get it from my cousin. And that's it!

quote
Be like the fountain that overflows, not like the cistern that merely contains.

~ Paulo Coelho unquote

wow, so close

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I got a booboo.

My cat scratched me when I tried to put her down slowly. Wow, what a scaredy cat My bandaiding is FAIL hahaha. Well, just thought you'd like to see how bad it looks. Rate it! 1-5 I say a 2. Why? It remind me the time my eldest brother dropped our different cat onto my lap, but she slipped and held onto my bare thigh and scratched me from my thigh to below my kneecap. Yep. Who says the Gruspe's aren't that hardcore? Lol. I made 30+ cranes so far. (= The colors are so pretty. I'm gonna hang them onto a thread and tape in on top of my wall. I'm thinking of doing it like that one chemistry class in school (x It was pretty. And maybe i don't have to paint my wall then. But I still want it lavender!

I'm out this week

Jovey, out

Kekeke

^^^^^

Made a lot today. My butt is sore. I'm gonna go to bed now.



Gonna make a lot of arts & crafts this month! Oh, it's July 1(=

Jovey, out